Flight was late. I reached Delhi from London on 25th of July. Heavy traffic. It took literally ages to reach Gurgaon. I had to attend a short program before leaving for the airport again. I quickly brushed and washed up. Since there was no time for any food, I “gobbled” a special South Indian coffee made by Phaneendar’s mother and went for the program. I quickly completed the program and rushed to the airport to catch the flight to Bangalore. This was an unannounced trip. I and a companion. Only two of us. We are going to see Avadhoota Nadananda. He had beckoned me to come and meet him as soon as I come back to India. He was resting after his most important trip to Mookambika, Kollur; the place that made and moulded Avadhoota Nadananda.
It started raining. Bangalore choked. Traffic blocked. It took us literally 5 hours to reach his abode. The previous morning, his leg slipped while getting out of his car resulting in a slipped disc. Hence, we kept coaxing him over the phone to have his meal and take rest. But he wouldn’t listen. He wanted to wait. The love of a Guru, mother, father, friend, companion, protector – all in one. The divine fragrance of true love! The master was waiting! The master always waits patiently!
A kind of guilt for making him wait dawned in me. As soon as it came, it disappeared. “What have I got to do with it? Neither me nor Guruji are responsible for the rain and traffic blocks. We are just witnesses of the divine play. Just witnesses!”
Finally, we arrived at the doorstep of the abode of Avadhoota Nadananda. There was not even a drop of time to waste. I was more concerned of Guruji refraining from food because of the delay the rain caused us. I went upstairs, guided by Sri. Mohan Gaaru. As soon as Avadhoota Nadananda saw me, deep and genuine happiness dawned on his face. I prostrated at his feet. I held his feet in eternal reverence. His feet are the feet of the Divine Mother and the eternal Guru Mandala. He said “Get up, Mohanji”. I got up and he got up too, even though his face was grimacing in excruciating pain due to the slipped disc. He repeated with overwhelming happiness, “Mohanji has come back to me.” He held my hands, hugged me, and kept repeating, “You have come back to me! Welcome back. I am going to give you everything that I have. If I did not do that, all that I have would have gone wasted. You are the most eligible one to receive from me.”
Every word he spoke hit me deep in my heart. I felt that he was already changing my software to receive the absolute in its complete grandeur. This was also in reply to an earlier mail from me to him, seeking his opinion on my intention to withdraw from public life for a while and court silence and practice. He had not replied. And these words that he spoke made me understand that the question that I asked was totally invalid and the Guru Mandala has already decided my future. All I have to do is to just flow. I have nothing to claim as my own including the things that we see and experience such as the body, mind and intellect. I am an empty bottle. He said “All the masters who you met have gone one by one. Soon I will go too. But I will not go before I give you everything. I will keep all my promises and fulfill the expectations of the Guru Mandala.”
I asked him “Guruji, why am I meeting these masters including you, at their last stage of walk on earth?” He replied “Nobody has left you. Nor will I leave you. They are meeting you, to take their work forward, which you are performing selflessly. You are guiding people the way we all want. All those whom you met, left with peace and satisfaction that the work that they had started will continue through you and you will never have a personal agenda. Purity and innocence are the strengths. The world may not understand this. We do. The Guru Mandala does. And we are with you, behind you and will never abandon you or let you suffer.” He added, “You are meeting them during their last stages because you are here to merge and continue traditions. And the masters never owned anything anyway.” This gave me clarity.
The faces of Vittal Babaji, Baba Ganeshananda Giri, and Vasudevan Swami, flashed through my mind. Now, here was Avadhoota Nadananda explaining the tapestry of my existence. Everything makes sense in a way, but when I imagine the weight of the responsibility, I wondered, can this perishable flesh see it through? If yes, how long? Guruji added “The sign of a true disciple is the lack of WHY in their mind. Never ask WHY or HOW. You shall be given everything and more you need for carrying out the journey to a wonderful completion. I shall keep my promises. I shall be with you every step, even if I do not have a body. The Guru mandala will be with you. Divine Mother will be with you. Our supreme guru Lord Dattatreya will be with you.” Thundering assurances! I never asked WHY ever. I only accepted with a bowed head the will of the supreme always.
Suddenly he asked me how my journey was and if I was tired after my overnight travel from London, this trip, without any rest, the tedium of road trip, so on and so forth. I was overwhelmed by the sight and touch of Guruji, I had no pain, fatigue or jet lag. There was no time for jet lag. I have come home. He walked with us to the door, sat us down and he himself started feeding us. His love was overflowing. It was palpable and every bit was a shower of blessing. A torrential rain of blessings was flowing down on me and my companion right from the palpable portals of the Guru Mandala through the hands of Avadhoota Nadananda.
After the food, we briefly talked about the proposed ceremony to be held on October 10th. He asked me to invite people close to me because this would be one of the most auspicious functions for me and also the last function that he intended to perform in this lifetime. He talked with firmness, determination and extreme conviction. He said “This title is not my decision. This title is not your expectation either. This has been ordered by the order of Guru Mandala. I am delivering it to you on the auspicious day of Vijaya Dashami. This is not an ordinary day, ordinary title or ordinary function. You will never be the same again. I will step down. You will climb up.” I felt a bit sad “Guruji, I understand, appreciate and honor the decision of Guru Mandala. I am not even asking if I am eligible because I have learned to accept what comes my way with utmost humility and surrender. But, why should you step down? And where am I climbing to?”
Guruji explained, again in a very serious and no-nonsense tone – soaked with love. “I have been crying to find someone eligible to hand over. I have been waiting for the permission to withdraw from public life. Guru Mandala told me “You can get off the saddle”. I asked again, “What next?” They just said “You are free to step down now.” They relieved me from all my responsibilities. I have to step down. Since a few decades, I have been walking this tedious path literally with blood in my mouth and 5th stage cancer which I had taken over from a woman who was dying. Now I am 76. This body is tired. I cannot move on like this anymore. I need to withdraw from public life, go back to myself and merge with the supreme consciousness. I shall be in isolation.
It was late at night. We decided to sleep. I literally had a long day. After a weekend retreat in London, I had hopped into the first possible flight to Delhi via Dubai and, after a function at Gurgaon, had come off to Bangalore. I had no sleep whatsoever. But, I was not tired either. Anyways, we decided to call it a day.
Dawn of 26th July. After I brushed washed and prayed, I walked to Guruji’s room. Guruji had decided to make a special dish for me. Sister Sujata told me that Guruji has been preparing for my arrival since days and was showing so much excitement, as would a mother or father would show when their son comes home after a long absence. Guruji himself went out and bought vegetables to cook dishes for me and insisted on serving me. Affection without barriers! Totally sincere and unconditional, overflowing love of a true master.
He said “I am not your guru.” I was perplexed. I did not understand what he meant. “I sign off your mails as “brotherly”. Why? I do not want to have any barrier between us, not even that of a guru and disciple. I am like your elder brother. I come to you. You need not come to me. You need not take any effort anymore. You have already come to me, come back to me. Now it is my turn. I come towards you running, just like my guru came running to me and took over my life and destiny. Just be available. Just be there.” So many things are happening already inside. I decided to just surrender and keep quiet. He asked “You have some barrier with me, haven’t you?” I said “No Guruji. I have respect. Only respect for you.” He said “Love. Love is enough. I feel you are my younger brother, even though you call me as Guruji. Let us not have any barrier”.
“Do you know who came and accepted the dakshina that I had handed over to you at Shirdi?” I said “I understand Guruji, he comes from Guru Mandala. He is my gateway to the ultimate reality.” Guruji said “He is the one who took me there. He is the one who guided me. He is eternal.” (I am not permitted to reveal the name here even though Guruji said the name in front of all those who were listening. If Guruji permits, I shall mention the name at a future date.”)
He asked “Are you not going to write a blog?” I said “No Guruji. Let me keep this sacred meeting and discussions away from the eyes of skeptical minds. There have been some complaints about the last blog that, what I wrote is not true.” Guruji said “I approved your blog. In that case, we are collaborating with each other to mislead the people? HA HA HA.” He laughed aloud and continued. “Whenever truth is conveyed, the insecure and guilty people will say that we are scaring them. This is good. Truth must be told. You need not worry. The Guru Mandala is talking through you. Every word, every matter we convey. You have my approval. Go on, write it.” Even though it was on his instruction that I started writing, I developed some doubts again. “How much can I disclose?” He said “As much as the world needs to know. There is nothing to hide. Those who manipulate the minds of people will call the absolute truth as untruth and will sell their own version of partial truth. Let us not care about it.”
I never went after powers or titles. I never tried to display anything out of natural. What comes to us is meant for us. Never ask why and why not. Both are absurd.
He said “The function of 10th is very important. It will be life-changing for you and for me. Your family members should join us.” He personally invited my family members on phone one by one. He was coughing and was visibly looking weak and tired. But he was as enthusiastic as a teenager. He said “I do not touch money. I do not use money. When people give money, I use it for serving the needy. I do not have a bank account. But, you are different. You have a family and you have their responsibility. You must live like a regular householder. You have to lead a different lifestyle than me. Do not imitate a master. Accept his teachings wholeheartedly.”
He told a story “One master was walking with 4 disciples. They became thirsty. There was no water. Suddenly they saw an alcohol shop. The master went in and drank four bottles of palm liquor and walked out. Seeing this, the disciples also did the same. Nothing happened to the master. The disciples became drunk. They walked further. They felt hungry. A few yards ahead, they saw a metal melting unit. The red-hot melted metal was oozing out of the opening. The master took it in his hands and swallowed it. Nothing happened to him. The disciples were unable to do that. The moral is, the master could possibly perform the unbelievable. Looking at that, the disciple should not attempt such feats. They should become masters before they attempt such things. Sister Sujata also mentioned that even though Guruji is going for treatment, in X ray and Scans, no ailments are visible while he is suffering from 5th stage cancer. This is intriguing the doctors. Guruji said, “when our 7 chakras are activated and we operate in superconscious realms, body is equal to sookshma (subtle). When cosmic energy is fully activated in our system, any kind of artificial energies such as medicines or machines will never work or get nullified. Medical science will not understand that.”
Guruji explained the things to do about the service that Manav Seva Samiti and Ammucare are doing together at various locations. He reiterated on two major things – BEING PRACTICAL and BEING RELEVANT.( Activities relevant to each location, people and their needs) He mentioned that charity should not be for name-sake. We should never have superiority complex. We should deliver what is relevant. We should not delay. We should perform before time because our promises affect somebody positively or negatively. When promises are not kept, it affects relationships. And we should focus more on empowering than feeding so much to create dependency. We should hold their hands as long as needed and allow them to be free. Humility is the right attitude of a karma yogi. He urged all to perform more activities and never allow the system to slow down because of individual ennui. He asked me to keep an eye when he goes on silence and help as much as I can. He was happy with the current team leaders and members. He said activity should always be relevant to the location and situation. There is no point in providing soap where there is no water. Give water first – then soap.
He sounded mentally prepared to withdraw and also told that his original plan of the title ceremony in December had to be brought to October because of his deteriorating health conditions. And he reiterated that it is a big occasion. He said “I do not speak anything. It is Guru Mandala speaking through me. Those who connect to this body called Nadananda will suffer with delusion. Those who connect to the universe beneath the form will reach the highest. Those who need nothing will get everything. Those who need everything can never be satisfied by anybody”. “Everything is in an atom. The potential for the whole universe is stored in an atom. And atom is all that we are.”
The day vanished as a carnival. Old friend Lakshmi and Natesh Mahadevan spiced up the day with their presence. It is difficult to write here everything that Guruji said to me. He also mentioned about a few rituals during the ceremony as well as transfer of spiritual energy. Anyways, he would remember more than me because he knows better.
I opened the curtain of my room at Hotel Jivanta, a fresh new hotel in Shirdi. Probably I am the first guest in that room. I am here for the inauguration of Madhuban Restaurant as well as Ahimsa Vegan Restaurant. Dawn is breaking. I am late to rise. I was late to go to bed as well because we arrived quite late and checked in late. That is definitely not an excuse to wake up late. In fact, no excuses are allowed in our path. Whatever the time to bed is, rising and shining should match up with the eternal SUN. The phone was beeping. I opened the Pandora’s Box. Opening the phone in the morning is not a good idea. Time vanishes in front of sundry messages from across the world. Suddenly I remembered the words of Sai Baba, “I am single. I have no family of my own. I have no relatives or so called friends. I have no wife or children. I have no possessions, money or houses. I have nothing to guard from thieves. Yet, Maya tests me and lures me time and again.” So, what about those who have everything that is mentioned above? Being a truly spiritual householder is not a small matter, especially if you have something to do in the world around you. Most people may not understand this truth and demand more and more from you.
In a short while, after my morning chores, I was ready for the external world. A beep materialised from my phone. A boy from the West wrote, “Mohanji, you said every Vishwamitra will have to face their quota of Menakas in life before perpetual attainment. Please explain”. I decided to answer that before I walked across to the neighbouring room where Avadhoota Nadananda was staying. I replied “One has to exhaust all his karmic entanglements before he becomes full and complete. Menaka represents the lures of terrestrial existence and not necessarily a female. Everything must come and go. Everything must happen. Whatever has to happen in one lifetime will happen at its appointed time. This is the play of duality of a terrestrial existence. There is no good and bad in this. Rise and fall are part of life. There is no pride in rising or disappointment in falling. Watch both with clarity and equanimity. Watch the show by being the projector. Every Vishwamitra will have his set of Menakas to go through, the associated happiness as well as sorrows.”
Most of the things of life cannot be avoided. When you choose only to give love under all circumstances, we will have to face and tackle multiple phases and faces of dualities of existence, all the mirages of life. The struggle between what you love to do and what you have to do. In the spiritual journey, it is nothing but what you have to do ignoring completely what you love to do which has zero value as it is always from the choreographed mind. With these morning thoughts in my mind, eager to see Avadhoota Nadananda – a saint without any pretensions, I walked towards his door.
People had already assembled on the floor around him. He was sitting with his back towards the window. When I entered, people moved aside to accommodate my entry. Guruji – as everyone affectionately calls him – beckoned me “Welcome Mohanji”. He is humble, simple, straight and extremely, palpably loving. His love is unmistakable. I kneeled down to him in respect and got up to hug him. Hugging him is merging into him. His energy is motherly. Strict and severe when needed and totally loving and selfless otherwise. He has zero tolerance towards someone who betrays his guru or tradition. He reacts with the intensity of Mother Durga towards those who cheat, steal, betray or do things unethical in life. He is simple and an epitome of pure love towards those who are suffering and helpless in the world. He loves his disciples like a mother. He sings and dances even though he suffers from 5th stage lung cancer. Nobody will even doubt that his body is in so much pain even though his mind has no suffering. The whole life is a sacrifice for him, often towards the undeserving. He never displays his state of body or his consciousness but never lets a good visitor go empty handed from his grace. But, if one tries to be over smart and try to outsmart him or lie to him, that person will lose even whatever he has. His energy matches a teenager. He takes rest only a few hours every day and keeps working for the welfare of the poor and helpless. He protects his disciples. He says “Even if I leave this body, I shall be on earth and will work as I do now, without change for the next 300 years. I will be as tangible as I am now”.
Scriptures say that if one betrays his own guru or disowns him, they will have to take numerous births starting from the lowliest of wombs before he gets back to a human birth. In other words, he has to repeat the cycle of evolution completely through about 845,0000 wombs, before he takes another human birth. Lord Vishnu tells Sage Narada “If someone abuses me or my name, I pardon them. If someone abuses his guru or his name, even if the Guru pardons him, I will not”. We can see this aspect in display in Avadhoota Nadananda. One person approached him for initiation. He asked him whether he has obtained initiation from anyone else. He said that he has received initiation from four different masters before he came to him. Avadhoota Nadananda became furious. He asked him to leave his presence immediately. He said, “One who cannot respect his own guru has no place in my world”.
In this context, a bit of flashback…
It was the beginning of March 2016. I was about to embark on my tour of the western countries and South Africa. A hectic schedule was awaiting me. And before the tour there were other programs in India as well. Guruji asked me to come for the inauguration of Ugadi at Kurnool. His call is a command. Myself and a close associate went to Kurnool for a day. While a few of us were sitting down with Guruji and chatting various things, a dog came there. Guruji displayed deep affection towards the dog. He “introduced” the dog to me as well. I patted him and he seemed very happy in our company. Guruji said “Mohanji, his name is Sudhir in this life. In his last life, he was Sudhirananda. He had taken vow of renunciation. But, he failed in his loyalty to his practices and his loyalty to his guru and became a dog in this life. He met me again and I will redeem his human form in his next life.” It may sound like a fairy tale. But, I have seen many such incidents of the state of Yoga Brashta (fallen from grace) in my short existence in the spiritual realms of this incarnation. The key reason for that is the betrayal of one’s guru. A guru need not be a guru who initiated us to any path or practice. It could be even one person or personality who we consider as our guru even in the mind. Once we consider anyone as our guru, even once, we should pay respects and honour his name and form. If we fail to do so, due to whatever reason, we may slip down in the path of evolution of consciousness. It is through various births in various wombs that we have attained a human birth. And it takes various human birth to evolve into the state of “animal – human” to “human – human”. It usually takes many further births to become “god – human”. Hence, we must never judge, criticise, scandalise or betray anybody let alone one’s own Guru, even if the guru is good, bad or ugly. (The book Bhagawatham explains this in detail) Take your time to accept someone as your guru. Take lot of time. Once accepted, keep the devotion steady and stable. This was the fundamental lesson Sudhir, the dog is giving to the world every day, by just being present in this world as an example of fall from grace.
Interestingly, when Guruji was introducing the dog to me, even though many people were around us nobody saw this event or took pictures of it. This I came to know when I was looking for pictures of this incident. Nobody remembers it. I spoke to Guruji and he said everyone cannot see certain levels of subtleties. This incident was real and this meeting had a deeper subtle meaning and hence no one else saw this. He also mentioned that everything is atom oriented. It is possible to increase and decrease density as well as change form at will when one changes his operating level from the mental to spiritual substratum.
I stated this here so that the reader could understand the consciousness of an avadhoota, who never tolerates injustice towards others even though many might have committed injustice towards him. We very well know that many have committed injustice to him through his brilliant autobiography.
Avadhoota Nadananda briefed about the service projects that he is doing along with Ammucare and he said that he is pleased and happy to be associated with Ammucare. This brightened the face of Sakshi who was listening to our conversation along with others. She has been leading Ammucare since the last 4 years and in 2016 Ammucare has started contributing within its capacity towards some of the projects of Guruji. Every organisation has its limitations. The requirement always remains larger than the means. This is the case of more or less every legitimate charity organisations.
Guruji’s autobiographical works will be published internationally in the name of Autobiography of an Avadhoota. An agreement was signed between myself, on behalf of Mohanji Foundation,Rameshji on behalf of Ashraya Trust, verified and approved by Avadhoota Nadananda himself. This book will soon be released globally in print, digital and audio version through Mohanji Foundations globally. I believe that a taste of true spirituality should reach the hands of every seeker of truth. This book is an honest and straightforward account of an incredible and often impossible journey a man of determination undertook against all odds and attained what was probably unimaginable in one lifetime. This is a no-nonsense book. I believe this book has the power and ability to awaken the truth in every reader just like the Autobiography of a Yogi did in the world from 1950s onwards. This would be a modern day classic.
Before we embarked on the Shirdi trip while speaking to Guruji, he told me “Mohanji, you and I alone should walk the streets of Shirdi. Can you give me some time for that?” I said “Guruji, your wish is my command. Do consider it as done.” Hence, soon after breakfast, me and Guruji started walking towards the temple of Sai Baba, Dwarakamai and the Samadhi Mandir. He said “We shall not go into the Samadhi Mandir. Those who must meet us will meet us here in the streets.” We walked seemingly aimlessly, but, I presume Guruji had a particular purpose in taking me alone through the sacred streets of Shirdi. While walking together, he said “Mohanji, see how many thousands of people are eating their food in Sai Baba’s name today. How many shops, restaurants, hospitals and schools get their sustenance in Sai Baba’s name! While Sai Baba was in His body, he hardly had any food to eat. Hardly anybody offered him food or shelter, except perhaps a handful of people. You and I have the same situation today. Today, we may not have sufficient, but tomorrow, so many will thrive in our name. The likes of us receive discrimination and betrayal while living and glorification after death.” Spot On! Guruji uttered a naked truth, perhaps to wake me up to a reality not to expect much understanding from contemporaries while the posterity may understand my existence far better.
I moved into contemplation mode. I was digesting this truth. Like a flash, the people who misunderstood me and left me came to the canvass of my mind. At that moment, some words were transferred into me “Those who left do not deserve you nor do you have anything to give them. Bless them and leave them. Those who stay are for you to give more to. Give them more.” Was it Sai Baba talking or Guruji? How does it matter? Truth is the relevance of message. It was relevant. We were walking past Dwarakamai in silence. Suddenly Guruji spoke “Mohanji, do not worry. I shall never leave your hand. I shall be with you through time. Just continue to do your best irrespective of what the world thinks of you. We shall protect you always. This is a promise!”
Maybe he brought me to the sacred land of Shirdi to deliver this promise from Divine Mother and Gyan Ganj that he represents as its 48th Peethathipathi (pontiff). These words filled my heart. A promise that no forces in the world can break and change! This is also a clear sign of deep connectivity and integration into the tradition of Avadhootas. A clear sign of beingness and being part of the tradition. Tradition invariably comes forth to deliver. There is no need to chase anything in the path of spirituality. He continued “I have decided to confer the title of Brahmarishi to You Mohanji on the most auspicious day of Datta Jayanti. I shall make all arrangements. Be there on the previous day.” I met Avadhoota Nadananda on the previous day of Datta Jayanti in 2015. One year is elapsing. So many things happened within this one year. A title that comes without asking for it, is meant to be. Whatever is given is real. Whatever comes to us is earned, probably through lifetimes. This thought filled my heart with gratefulness. Suddenly another thought happened in the canvas of mind. “I am an ordinary man. I am not learned in rituals, scriptures or philosophies. Am I eligible for a title as grand as this? And that too from the pontiff of Gyan Ganj?” Suddenly without asking, the answer came from Guruji, “You are Brahmarishi. We shall make it official on Datta Jayanti”.
It is impossible to meddle with anyone’s natural karma without your hands getting burned at least to some degree. Not many masters involve in the karma of others. They witness impartially and allow them to complete it naturally, irrespective of suffering or pleasure for their minds. Guruji has interfered quite willingly in serious karmas of people time and again and took it all on his own body. His body has multiple ailments, but, I was told that the medical reports showed NO ailments. He himself told me that he is suffering from fifth stage lung cancer and is vomiting blood every night. But, you will never feel him as a cancer patient as he jokes, chides, sings and dances with us at the age of 75. He makes life a complete joke and rightfully so. Every person who is a healer must remember this. There is NO healing without their karma coming in the way. True masters out of sheer compassion may take it on themselves. We have seen that in the stories of masters such as Sai Baba and many others. Guruji is no exception. This is nothing but overflowing kindness. But the disciples, let alone society may not even understand the size of their work. Many people who have been immensely benefitted often ungratefully shift camps at the drop of a hat. Guruji explained to me how people who he loved and gave everything possible just walked away without any kind of remorse or guilt and even scandalised him, spreading hatred towards him amongst others with paltry reasons.” One day I’m God to them and another day I’m the devil. It doesn’t take much time for insecure people to change their mind because their vonnection is conditional.” I told him that I have experienced the same time and again in my life too. We still keep giving.
When he was talking about betrayals by closest people who were loved dearly and were given all what we could, he had tears in his eyes. I asked him, “Guruji, should we feel this way? Should we feel at all, when people betray our trust and even leave us for that matter?” He said “Remember, we have taken a human body. Hence feel as a human would.” Every experience should be felt to the core but we should have nothing to do with it. That means, feel, experience and move on without a stain of the past. When we came out of the satsang with Guruji, one companion asked “Mohanji, you know these things. I have heard you talk about levels of attachment and detachment. Why did you pose this question to Guruji? Were you testing him?”. I said “Never. I respect him. I never test any master, let alone a master of Guruji’s stature. Remember, whenever I go in front of a master, I am a total disciple. Empty to the core. I have no stature of my own except as a disciple or a seeker of truth. When I deliver satsangs, I assume a different stature, that of a teacher or a guide. We must never go to any teacher with a filled up cup. We should go with a totally empty cup and zero ego. We should forget about what we know or what we are and surrender completely and absorb their gifts like a sponge with humility and gratefulness.”
While walking in Shirdi with Avadhoota Nadananda, he talked about the attitude of service. Most people who help in charity do it as a favour. We should become both the giver and the receiver. We should hold no ego while delivering and instead, should feel grateful that we were useful in this incarnation for this world in some way.
We sat in the verandah inside the Shirdi complex. He said “There is no need to stand in queue, push and pull and have darshan of Baba. Those who we have to meet will come to meet us.” We sat for a short while. He expressed his deep satisfaction about the association between his organisation and Ammucare. He said that before he met me, he was doing this work practically alone and now he feels good to have the association of myself and Ammucare. I felt happy that he is happy with us.
Suddenly, he got up and said “Come Mohanji. Let us walk. Are you tired or fed up of this old man?” I said “Guruji, this is my privilege and honour. I shall never be tired of you. I am grateful for what you are delivering to me during this personal journey. I may not even understand what you have delivered inside me or how you have changed my software. But, one thing is sure. This is an extraordinary journey. You and I. This is no coincidence and also, I believe there is a very deep meaning to this communion, which I am sure I will recognise or understand in the years to come. It feels like a fairy tale. Our meeting, the subsequent association as well as the events that lead us to the streets of Shirdi where we are walking together as one Consciousness.” Guruji said “I will never leave your hand. Our relationship is lifetimes old. I will always protect you and empower you to do more in the world. Your selflessness attracts me. You will never have any problems in life. We shall make sure of that. Those who have left you or betrayed your trust should not be worried about. They lost you. Do not think about those who have gone. They could not understand you. You lost nothing. They lost you forever. Those who see only our terrestrial side will completely miss the consciousness and the tradition that we represent. Understand that they did not possess the eligibility to walk the Golden Path of Lord Datta to the ultimate end. You are not responsible for that. Relax and do more for the world. I shall be with you all through. This is a promise.”
We stopped at the temples of Lords Shiva, Shani and Ganesha inside the Shirdi temple complex. We saw one lean man with matted hair standing looking at the entrance of the Lord Shani temple. Guruji said “Here he is. He is the one who was waiting for us.” He took out a Rs100/- currency which was wrapped up in his cloth around his waist and asked me “Give it to him”. I took the money and walked towards him and when I reached, he turned and looked at me. He looked like a wandering saint with matted hair and sparkling eyes. Looked like a Nath Sadhu. I gave him the money. He received it and bowed down to me. We walked on. Soon we left the temple.
While walking back, Guruji again said “Did you see how many thousands of people are having their daily bread in the name of Sai Baba today. While in his body, he wandered if not begged for food. Same is the situation for all of us. While in the body, people do not recognise us. After leaving, they will come to our shrine.” I said “Guruji, most people who come here are coming to beg for something and not to thank Sai Baba for taking birth on this soil and guiding millions. If he begged for food during his time, most of these people are begging for something from him 100 years after he left the body.” He nodded and laughed at the irony of life. He said “Sai Baba was the 37th pontiff of Gyan Ganj. I am the 48th. Now I am not well. It is time for me to remove this mantle. I am waiting for orders. The power of this incarnation will remain and multiply for 300 years after leaving the physical form. Same with Sai Baba. Same with me.” I was reminded of the statement of Ganeshananda Giri, “I wanted to leave my body in Shirdi. But Sai Baba said “Go to Chennai and leave your body there. You will “LIVE” there”. Hence I am going to South soon.” He told this when we met him in Shirdi in December 2015. Such saints who walk on earth do not have any personal agenda. They are just obeying orders of the divine.
The function that we came for, the inauguration of Madhuban Restaurant in Shirdi along with the Ahimsa Vegan Restaurant, was successfully completed with Guruji guiding the whole program tagged along by Sulakhe Maharaj and myself. He blessed the venture and all of us. This is the short summary of a memorable trip to Shirdi in the month of June 2016.
Aum Sai Ram
P.S. The above text is read and approved by Avadhoota Nadananda himself before publication. He said “Everything is perfect. Change NOTHING.”
Mohanji probes further. What is the reality of the human condition? Is it possible to determine spiritual stature? What is the connection between the Guru Principle and the evolution of consciousness? A timeless tradition revisited through contemporary controversy. Mohanji leads us beyond mind, ego, and time-space limitations, beyond scandals which contaminate the inner space, to a clearer understanding of the grand merger of all paths into divine unity.
Stature of a saint
We create our realities. Whatever we fear will appear in our lives. Whatever we love can also be ours, if the intensity is right. Yet, what we fear has a better chance of manifesting in our lives because mind nurtures the negative more than the positive. This only pertains to human beings because our acceptance level of reality and life is much lesser than the beings of other species. So, if we have experienced certain realities in our life which did not lead us to a happy state, it is because of such trapped fears and insecurities or stored negative emotions. We should not blame others for our predicament, if we understand how the law of karma works. Moreover, most people cannot change or evolve into the higher in one lifetime. Metamorphosis is a process. It takes lifetimes of trials and errors to finally catch the ultimate truth from a quagmire of relative truths.
Look at the total population of the world. Let us take 7 Billion people and try to classify them for understanding’s sake. Please understand that this classification is generic and there could be exceptions and mixtures. We look at people in terms of their orientation, such as physical, emotional, intellectual, spiritual and beyond everything. There could be physical, physical-emotional, emotional-intellectual etc. Hence, please consider this generic dissection only as a guideline to understand a point.
At least 35% of the people of the world are “physical” oriented. They indulge in physical, sensory gratification and lead a life of momentary pleasures.
Another 30% live in the emotional plane. They are more inclined to emotional gratification, gossip, sleaze, anxieties, fears so on and so forth. They live with their mind, totally controlled by the mind. These are the people who are hooked to soap operas which churn out nothing but emotions and related suffering. These people always make room for gossips and emotional negativity. They always react to life and call themselves victims of circumstances. They are more prone to psychological disorders.
About 20% of the total population lives in the intellectual plane. Their gratification is through their intellect. They do not have much to do with physical or emotional gratification. The so-called intellectuals such as thinkers, planners, strategists, scientists and all other intellectuals fit into this category. They consume knowledge, as well many other intellectual methods of self-gratification. They usually feel much superior than the other categories, ignorant of the fact that the concepts that they are consuming are binding them eternally. Many of them are self-centered and even cut off from the society. Many of them do not care for other beings pain or suffering. Many churn out theories using their brain which pushes development, but not always real progress. Most creations adds material comforts at the cost of alienation from the nature which directly affect every aspects of immunity that protects physical and psychological existence on earth. Many of the medicines and gadgets that man made have harmed man-kind. Many creations of man has destroyed the earth. Many of them are non-productive too. They just live in their own cloisters.
About 10% can be considered as spiritual. They are exploring spirituality and this interests them a lot. But, they are still only exploring. Many become escapists in the name of spirituality. Many fall into depression mode and either withdraw or repeat the same thing over and over again, without much benefit to themselves or others. Many do not know what they are looking for and of course, where to find it. Many fall into traps of rituals, predatory religions and cults.
The remaining 5% actually attain the highest, beyond the duality of existence. The rest fall either backwards or forwards. All the physical, emotional as well as intellectual members are also exploring the unknown through spirituality. But, they have limitations. In the case of the physical, it would be transactional worships for the sake of some benefit from God, with complete non-understanding. Most of the “physical” people queue up in front of temples and at the doorsteps of astrologers to pacify their insecurities. Emotion oriented people will either have blind faith rooted in devotion or follow others blindly. Emotion clarified is devotion, which can take one to the ultimate merger. Very few attain the capacity for total surrender and acceptance of everything that happens in their life with total willingness, endurance and non-resistance as the gift of God. This level is achieved through higher awareness, which is achieved by constant contemplation on the energy that runs our system which is also called – GOD. The power of all the great saints have been this surrender and acceptance with no doubts about themselves, their path, their guru and their destination. This is not easy to come to. The intellectual path is even more difficult because those on that path need reasoning for everything, which slows them down tremendously. They would face duality much more than anybody. Doubts and analysis plague them often. Acceptance would be lesser in them. They try to understand the workings of the subtle through their gross intellect. This is as tedious as making a camel cross through the eye of a needle. The spiritual types have actually crossed over many barriers such as the physical, emotional and intellectual walls. And they are determined to cross over to the realms of the subtle. But, they also could be controlled by their egos and sense of achievement, just like their cousins of other categories. Ego lurks in every state. It appears and disappears without calling. Ego is a permanent ingredient of human existence. Thus, out of the 10% spiritually inclined, 5% actually attain the highest. Thus is the case of the spiritual journey. It is not easy. All paths are good. All paths run parallel to the same destination. So, there is no need to worry whether a path is right or wrong or whether a guru is good or bad. All that liberates you time and again is good for you. All that liberates you from each level and leaves you liberated is good for you. Anything that binds you is bad for you, irrespective of whether it is a person, a place, a situation or an action. You are born free and should die free. Terrestrial existence is temporary. You cannot be bound here. Body is borrowed from the earth for the sake of experiencing earth just like you hire a rent-a-car when you go to a new city to travel through the city and do your errands. In our case, the soul has borrowed this body for this journey on earth. Karma is the agenda for the journey. Senses, mind, ego and intellect are the operating tools or navigation guides. Body must be given back when the job is over. So, living a liberated existence here and now is very important. Wasting time on the bed-time stories of other people has no value in our journey. All have such stories. There is darkness in every corridor. There is good and bad in everyone. Only those who have never sinned have the eligibility to throw stones. And those who have never sinned will never throw stones either, because they know very well that throwing stones at anything or anybody will pull them down for sure and one karmic being has no right to judge another.
I read that Amma herself responded to the criticisms against herself and her organization. She said three things in a very polite and matter-of-fact language:
Many children come to me with many expectations, large expectations. When these are not fulfilled, they turn around and criticize or scandalize. Children should not become angry like this. Anger is definitely a weakness. It is negative and can pull a person to the depths of negativity. Patience is strength. Children should exercise patience and not negative emotions.
Amma is an open book. Our ashram is also an open book. Any financial transaction happening here is recorded and filed with the government. Anyone who has a doubt can verify it anytime.
I never call people or ask people for favors. I have never asked anyone to come to me and serve me. All have come voluntarily. In the same way, all have the freedom to leave too. Why do you complain?
This shows the stature of Amma. Absolutely calm amidst a storm! This shows the stature of the individual. Totally unaffected and unperturbed! This also means that she is innocent. If there was any speck of pollution, anxiety or fear, it would have been visible. She is not a politician to mask all crimes with expertise and still go to people and ask for electing them to power again, as if nothing ever happened. The calm declares her purity.
Again, it would be a grave mistake to assess the stature of a saint by the yardsticks of his or her disciples. Usually, very few disciples could rise up to the stature of their master to receive the mantle from him or her. They will all be operating in different levels of consciousness. So, never measure the stature of a guru by looking at his disciples. Guru has accomplished the highest. Disciples are with the guru because they are aspiring to reach the state of their guru, if not the stature. So, they cannot be considered the same. State can be bought with money. Stature has to be earned. Stature is a state that cannot be bought. It takes a lot of efforts to become totally detached. When a person is totally detached, whether he drinks alcohol or smokes (like Shankar Maharaj, Shirdi Sai Baba), sleeps with women or visits brothels, it does not make any difference in their still state of mind. Stillness can never be disturbed by an activity once the saint attains it. Common man cannot understand the freedom that stillness of the mind or the mind-less state provides. They judge based on expressions and they fail to touch the real because of their mental blocks. Not being able to touch the real while existing is one of the real tragedies of a terrestrial existence.
Sometimes the saint observes silence amidst the storm of scandals. This is not because of his inability to speak out. This is because he is not pressured to speak. He is objective. He speaks only when he has to. He will not counter anyone’s emotions because he has nothing to do with it. Mind is still. Often, it so happens that the saint foresee the calamity and also use it to shake the tree of their own set up. This could help them shed many a dry leaves which does not help the tree. This will also help shed the tamas (inertia) among their disciples and swing them into positive action. So, silence could be because of foresight and a positive purpose. A scandal always works as a positive filter. It filters away the feeble, unsure or fickle and retains those who are truly connected. Hence a scandal is a good idea as a filter.
True Saints are soft targets in the gross world. They are usually defenseless. Many of those who have money, power, position and contacts gets away with anything. But, there are those to whom money flows because of their sheer stature and subtlety. They will never use their position, power, money or connections to save themselves. They will never manipulate minds. They are selfless. They are immortal while in the body and keeps the body only out of compassion towards their followers. The gross world which cannot see the subtlety of a saint always pumps bullets of scandals into their defenseless lives. The saint loses nothing. He was never bothered about his body anyway. He would just leave the body behind and expand into the ever present super expanded consciousness well beyond the body. The loss is for the world. Every generation has had many soft targets like this through the history of mankind.
The established religions, priests and preachers with acquired knowledge always become terribly insecure about a true saint who is connected to the source. They manipulate minds against the true saint. The saint does nothing to protect himself. He is completely surrendered to the will of the universe, a dharmic existence, almost like a being in the wild. From birth, until death, they are surrendered to the will of the nature. They cannot manipulate, accumulate, store or be greedy. They consume only what is essential for them. Even if there is excess or abundance of anything, it is distributed evenly for the needy. They only know how to give. They give all that they have. It adds up insecurities in the minds of the established priests and religious heads who sow fear to harvest people. Fear conquers minds much more easily than love. It is a very effective tool.They use the people to secure their own future, ensure power and maintain supremacy. A true saint has nothing to do with these. They are crucified, as they are innocent, soft targets. And since sex scandal gets maximum media attention as well as audience, that is the best ammunition against an unarmed saint. If you study the history of most of the scandals, you will see the thread of this phenomenon deeply embedded in every incident.
If expectations are not fulfilled, it leads to anger. Anger leads to need for justification. Justification demands need for companionship or isolation. In order to avoid guilt, people make themselves believe or convince themselves that what they thought, spoke and did was the right thing and they deserve attention from others. They become heavily insecure with their own proposition. Some people (usually of the same feathers) will buy their story and sympathize with them and give them company. Some will avoid them. These are all aspects of the play or maya or relative truth. Truth will always shine forth even if the cloud of doubts obscure the truth temporarily. Be aware of it and stay clear. No true guru who is connected to the source needs anyone or any kind of support. They are in the market place out of compassion for human kind as well as other beings. They are walking reminders for you as to who you really are. They represent the state which is your destination. You need them to be a road sign or a reminder to reach their stature. Be reasonable with yourself. By scandalizing a guru, you are destroying your own chance for the highest. This is because you are destroying the guru principle (guru tattwa) which you carry within yourself. You are free to be with any guru and you are also free to be away from them too. However, let your detachment from the guru arise because of your accomplishment in terms of higher state, not because you have differences in opinions, which is essentially a mind factor. If you want to know the stature of your guru, you need to go beyond your mind. From separation to oneness
It is important to respect every individual at every time, even if the person is harmful to society. If a person is harmful, use the law of the land to deal with it and save the society. We should never judge or condemn another. This will affect us more than the other. When poison for the arrow is manufactured in your house, remember, your house has more poison than what the tip of the arrow carries to others. Your inner space should remain pure. Using that state of purity, observe the contributions delivered by the saint to the world. In the case of Amma, how many people has she touched in this lifetime! How many have been given hope and solace by Amma! How many has been healed! How many people attained fulfillment! How many charity activities! How many acts of kindness! How many beautiful instances of guidance and teachings! This is what we should cherish. This is what we should nurture. We should look at the value of a saint who lives in the society with people in primarily two aspects – A. The clarity in her teachings. B. The charity that she does. In short – THE RELEVANCE! The physical and spiritual relevance. Let us never ignore that.
A request to all those who talk ill about amma or to all the people who talk badly about saints in general, please check how their life has added value to the world! How many people have been benefited! It is easy to live and die in one’s own cubicle of personal agendas, selfish pleasures, ownership, possessiveness, concepts, fears, personal family-ship, happiness and sorrows. When you decide to live your freedom, there is bound to be opposition. Those who cannot walk the path or those who cannot understand the path will certainly create road blocks. Do we have to budge? Do we have to change tracks? Live your own truth and discard the borrowed relative truths. Your experience and your truth has much more value in your life than other’s opinions. If you clearly understand that, it would be a great favor that you would be doing to yourself. In the path of dissolution, in the very end, when the disciple merges with the consciousness of the Guru, every relationship ends. There is no duality to maintain a relationship. There will be no Guru or disciple. But, cutting the relationship before total dissolution, would be a terrible mistake as well as a tragedy for the seeker even though it never affects any guru. In the beginning of the journey, a disciple will only see the superficial differences. It takes a lot of time and effort to see the unity of consciousness. There should be patience, perseverance, conviction and commitment. Otherwise, disciples will get stuck with the superficial. The problem with the superficial is that it only provides comparisons, infatuations and eventual disassociation if not depression. The agony of separation is usually terrible in the beginning. But, as the disciple comes closer and closer to the Guru’s consciousness, beyond the façade of superficial expressions and image, the pain slowly gets converted into bliss. Finally, when the merger of consciousness happens, there is only bliss, oneness. There is no separation, nor the related confusion. So, in the end, even the image, words and expressions will dissolve when you become the Guru’s consciousness. This is what we call totality or complete liberation. Here by the word Guru, I mean one who is connected to the source not one who is imparting acquired knowledge. Be aware of that.
In the beginning of the journey, there are only differences. The mind only recognizes the differences, the comparisons, and the superficial. When the disciple gradually approaches the unity of consciousness, the mind is forced to dissolve. Mind must dissolve to experience unity of consciousness. A struggle happens – often a bitter struggle, a war. Mind brings forth everything that could create alienation. This is a very confusing time. Mind asks you to run away and save yourself. Mind objects to the idea of the merger of consciousness and counters it with your deep-rooted or deep-set fears such as death, destruction, wrong paths, wrong gurus, fears of the unknown, so on and so forth. The real war is between the truth and illusion or between the soul and the mind. Mind likes to keep its comfort zones. Mind likes to keep its identities. Soul wants liberation from the illusory existence. Illusions capture us more than the soul. Soul exists in a liberated state always, which we will only know when we touch or feel the soul. Illusions keep us blinded from the truth. Guru represents the truth. The fears, doubts and illusions that the mind carries immerses the consciousness of the Guru in delusion, by projecting the superficial aspects such as the form and habits of the guru. This is why we discuss more about the superficial aspects of a Guru rather than his or her teachings and guidance. We are looking at the disparities or differences much more than the unity in consciousness. We are more connected to the terrestrial aspects of a living guru, including his wealth, sexuality, attire, mannerisms, etc, rather than the projection of the supreme consciousness or his connection to the source that actually made him Guru material. Masters who are connected to the source, shines. Nobody cloud can permanently take away the glory of the sun!
Why are we so bound by time and differences? It is because we are identifying and operating in time zones and not absoluteness. The body has a duration and that duration is measured in time. Having a body keeps us hooked to time. Hence it is essential to search for and understand the timeless in us. The timeless is our real state. That which is absolute in us is what we are, and not the body which is bound by time. The search begins in the mind and ends in the mind-less state. The very material that we use our mind to explore can only be understood when the mind is absent. This is something which every seeker should understand. Mind is the barrier between man and the absolute. Mind includes ego and intellect too. When we merge with the absolute there is no need for the mind because there is nothing apart from you. You have nothing more to “know” or “understand”. You are that! Tat Twam Asi. So, who is afraid of the singular TRUTH? Who is afraid of truth at all? Your mind. You are not your mind. Be aware of that. Appreciate their love and care
Why do we need the proximity of great saints at all? Why do we crave for it? The reason is that they represent the peace that has been eluding our lives since lifetimes. They represent our original state. They represent what we could be or what we are already, which our mind has hidden from us for so long. If the mind gets connected to a guru either due to infatuation or helplessness, the relationship cannot mature into unity of consciousness. When you are unable to cross the first mile of your road home, how will you ever reach your bed to rest upon? The proximity of the guru should reflect as your inner stillness, peace, strength, resolution, so on and so forth. Usually, a true guru will reflect your own state. Their reflection of anger mirrors your pent up anger; their overflowing love reflects your bottled up or unfulfilled love. They could even reflect your sexuality, hunger and all other personality traits. When the guru operates in unity consciousness, he or she becomes what appears before them, because they have already dissolved their mind and just honestly reflect what you are to yourself! This understanding would help a seeker when they approach a guru, provided they stop measuring their guru using their mind, including ego and intellect. The proximity of great saints is a constant warning, a constant reflection, constant removal of personality traits and also constant burning and churning of blocking negativities that distract one in the path of God. Many people prefer a guru who is not in his/her body because they cannot handle the personality of the living guru or they get terribly disillusioned by the living guru’s personality traits. The dead master is easier because what is in your mind about him is your reality. What he was or what he could have possibly done if alive does not matter anymore. The teachings, often expressed through others and not directly by the master himself, and their personal interpretation can easily provide a comfort zone for the confused seeker. They cannot think of changes within themselves. They would rather change the guru! A living guru eats, drinks, sleeps like any other man. A living guru may wake you up, even rudely, from your pretensions and fears. If this is a problem, I would suggest staying away from a living guru. True gurus are honesty incarnates. They only want the best for their disciples. Often, the disciples are not ready for the best. What you already are, you do not know. Mind has kept you disillusioned. When the mask of mind is removed, you will know what you already are, and the difference between what you ‘thought’ about yourself and what you actually are! Huge difference! Huge awakening! Here, the master is a road sign. He or she just guides as per your path. He never intrudes, yet will slap your hand when you are indulging in anything that prevents your progress in the path, whether your mind likes it or not. Comparing a true master who has dissolved his mind, to that of a seeker operating 100% from his mind is an absolutely wasted exercise.
Hence, spirituality needs acceptance and spontaneity. It needs understanding. In summary, live and let live. If crimes are committed by someone, or by a group, inform the legal authorities. Always exercise restraint and approach everything with caution and not reaction. Respond spontaneously and do not react violently.
All that any saint or master who is connected to the source does is accept support (including monetary) from those who can afford, and then pass it on to cater for those who cannot afford. They are creating a balance in society. They are diluting the imbalance between the rich and the poor. They lead by example. When such a saint’s living time becomes more valuable and they are provided with comforts to maintain them, this is only natural. When their horizon increases and more are benefited by their presence, they will have to do more to make themselves available to the world, irrespective of whether it is a fast car or a private jet. Everything depends on the value they add to the society. It applies to every human being and not only a saint. A CEO of a conglomerate will have to use sophisticated gadgets to run his empire. If a person who runs a small unit envies him and suggests that he should be simpler, it is absolute ignorance. Likewise, money and wealth comes to a saint as per the relevance of the saint to the world. However, they use it to give back more to the world. They hardly use anything for themselves because their terrestrial needs are minimal.This enhances their compassion and makes it more effective. We must appreciate their love and care and not be jealous of their facilities. As per requirements, facilities will happen. It is absolutely right to be a contemporary and use all the contemporary gadgets especially if the mission involves the public or the world. If the saint is sitting in the quiets of a cave or mountain, none of these matters anyway. The contemporary saint may not be even demanding it from anyone. It comes to them, as I had stated earlier. They are the people who could have anything, but needs nothing. They will never be understood in two dimensional class divides such as have’s and have not’s. This is the simple truth of existence.
Amma, from what I have understood, singularly supported almost 30,000 students post tsunami in Japan. She is said to have contributed more than what the UN or anyone did post tsunami in Indonesia. She built 100 crore worth of houses for Tsunami victims in India, which no organization, politician, spiritual leader, political party or government did. She is definitely using her wealth for good causes. Which politician who is hoarding public funds have we heard of doing anything close to what amma has done for the world? Do they share even a tea with a poor person? What are you complaining about? What right does anyone have to complain about Amma? What are you worried about? What are you afraid of? Her sheer stature is attracting people to her. No amount of envy can change that.
Finally, “The good that a man does is interred with his bones. The evil survives his death.” (William Shakespeare Julius Caesar ACT 3 Scene 2) All the good things a man does are easily forgotten. Only the wrongs are spoken about! This is true through time since the history of mankind. We are eternal gossip mongers, one way or the other. This is why we are more interested in Jesus’ sex life than his glorious teachings. This is why we are more interested in the private lives of all the public figures. This is why sleaze sells. We have always been like this. We bury 1000 good things that a man did for the world along with his body and talk about a few follies or acts of frailty through time. I was told that one channel alone used 384 hours to telecast the news when Shankaracharya of Kanchi was arrested. The same channel aired the news of his acquittal for 3 minutes! This is just an example of how negativity sells. Sleaze has it’s evergreen market. Buying into gossips, ignoring our experience is an absolutely useless exercise. Cherish the acts of glory and discard the acts of negativity. If a person is harmful to society, pass him or her on to the hands of law with evidence. There need be no emotions about it. Those who ate salt must drink water. There should not be any compromise. Character assassination is the sign of the weak and is a cowardly act. If there is disagreement, it should be discussed face to face and dissolved in good time, because our inner space should always remain clean and uncontaminated as we walk towards the path of total liberation. It is easy to contaminate the inner space, and difficult to clean it. Beware.
Infinite Love, Unconditionally
Fuelled by the current controversy surrounding Mata Amritanandamayi (Amma), Mohanji offers his perspective on this and other episodes of history, urging us to look deeper, beyond the money, sex and power games, beyond the physical, emotional and intellectual illusions of the mind, and to cultivate an awareness of the wisdom behind timeless spiritual traditions such as the Teacher / Guru Essence. This two-part powerful and insightful blog not only serves as yet another wake up call, reminding us that ALL living beings are interconnected and interdependent – but also sheds further light on our paths to liberation, and the attainment of unity consciousness.
Who is afraid of the TRUTH?
We believe that practices take us to perfection. Not always. We have practiced life and living many times over, yet we still remain imperfect! We believe that performing sadhana (spiritual practices) helps us reach God. Doing-ness is bound by time. We believe that reading and acquiring knowledge takes us to perfection. Intellect is bound by time too. Retention has a duration. Memory has limitation. All that we learn from outside may not even become our reality, as we chew much more than we can digest. Anything in us which is bound by time cannot take us to the timeless. Only the timeless within us can merge our consciousness to the timeless. That timeless is the true you. That is your true nature. So, as we start our journey on the path of spirituality, such questions will keep cropping up. Am I on the right path? Am I that or is this the truth? Whatever limits you, including food, clothing, sex, shelter, space, time, relationships, concepts, fears, phobias, terrestrial love, hatred, possessiveness, so on and so forth, is not representing your true nature. Causeless love is definitely an expression of your true nature. Causeless is the real you. Causes are just expressions. Causes are bound by time. Measurable time is expression bound. Measurable expressions are time bound. Thus interconnected they are!
We live in a world of extreme variety. There is a constant tug-of-war between the truth and the untruth, the real and unreal, illusion and reality, the good and the bad, between good and the evil. We watch it played out every day on television channels and in our own minds, when we try to digest the scandalizing truths vomited out by the media, and mostly modified to suit their audience, or whoever pays their bills. The common man is always confused. He is always kept confused. This state in society is needed for the media to stay in business.
What has led me to write all this, are the hours of discussions about a recently released book on Mata Amritananda Mayi Devi which has created quite a storm. I have not read the book, nor have I touched a copy of it. However, since many people have asked me whether I agree or disagree, I have decided to make my position on this very clear.
I look at life objectively, without any emotions. Whenever there is emptiness outside of us, it is just a reflection of the emptiness within us. Inner void and outer void are inter-connected. Yet, to change the outer void, we need to change the inner void. Inner strength is always reflected in our outwardly expressions. This being the case, I look at the history of mankind with amusement. There has always been a struggle between the binding, controlling, law-making side of humans and the liberated, unbound and selfless “truth-sayers”. Time and again, whenever someone spoke the truth, they were scandalized, even crucified, and later philosophies and religions were formed based on their teachings after they were shamelessly assassinated. In short, a true saint was not recognized during his time. It always took the future generations to honor a saint. I can quote many examples. John the Baptist, Jesus, Socrates, even our own Shirdi Sai Baba, Bhagawan Nityananda to name a few. During their time, none of them were truly honored or respected. John the Baptist was beheaded. Jesus was crucified. Socrates was given poison and killed. Shirdi Sai Baba was taken to court for a paltry matter. When Radhakrishna Mayi became pregnant, people accused Baba of being the child’s father. Bhagawan Nityananda was asked by local officials to reveal the source of his income based on complaints by people!(the very people who had been tremendously benefited from him). When the officials threatened to arrest him, Bade Baba (Bhagawan Nithyananda) took them to a pond and told them it was there that he got his money from. When the officials decided that they were being fooled, Bhagawan jumped into the pool and came out with a pot of gold coins, saying his finances came from here. When the officials recognized the stature of Baba, they left. The point is that contemporaries never recognized the stature of any living saint and it always took the next few generations to honor a past saint. Generation after generation, the same habits continue. We scandalize, arrest or kill a saint or anyone who lives and speaks the real truth. There is only one absolute truth – that we are indeed one with God. In other words – Aham Brahmasmi (I am Brahma). Those who cannot see beyond relative truth, who identify themselves with limited identities such as their body, mind or intellect and who are proud of their terrestrial stature, have never agreed with any liberated person, living beyond man-made rules.
No generation ever appreciated a living Guru. They only idolized the dead. When we scandalize anyone, someone who does good to society, the world, to people, birds or animals, be aware that we are just following the same old repeated history of intolerance. We are no different from those who crucified Jesus, poisoned Socrates or Osho. We are no different from those who burned people at the stake in Europe. The same people who orchestrated the inquisition, ethnic cleansing, and all the wars and worries of the world. We are the same. We have been seriously concerned more about the private life and specifically the sex life of a public figure, than his message/contribution to the world. We never appreciated the contributions of great people while they were alive, however we did glorify and idolize politicians, who cheated, stole and danced with borrowed feathers (money and talent). The names of streets carry the name of politicians who perhaps even swindled money and manipulated people. No saints are honored even in their own home town. Adi Shankara got no support from the local people of his community to cremate his own mother. Today, we respect him as the master (saint) of the era. The great Sant Jnaneshwar and his brothers and sister were made to starve by the then society. His parents were asked to commit suicide by the people of their time, as repentance for shedding renunciation. All the great masters have endured deep humiliation from their own society. Look into the history, you will know. We have nothing to be proud of. If we can correct ourselves now; well and good. Otherwise, history will repeat itself. It is repeating itself over and over again.
Character assassination is usually a byproduct of jealousy. There is also jealousy in the spiritual circles. The phenomenon of one-upmanship and its associated power struggles are happening in all aspects of the society. The spiritual world, despite the isolation and self-oriented lifestyle, is not immune to the egos of existence. Instead of unification, many so-called spiritual gurus are keener on building walls and dividing people between groups. All spiritual teachers are relevant because they cater to someone in society. We cannot under-estimate any nor can we question their relevance. But, what example should they set to the sundry seekers of the world if it is not peace, harmony and oneness beyond even species barrier? The key aspect of any spiritual path is self-actualization. There are many paths one can choose to achieve that, as per his or her inherent constitution. Who can question that? One is free to choose his or her guru, even though the scriptures declare that the one who appears to you is the right one for you, just like our school classes where the teacher that appeared in one class helped us cross over to the next. The power wars within the spiritual circle, the silly egos and disagreements among spiritual gurus, the extended disagreements of their disciples or in short, a lack of unity is destroying the very fabric of the age old, time-tested principles of sanatana dharma or the basic ground rules of our very existence. Name, fame, money and power are getting to people’s heads. Under the masks of spirituality, crimes are committed. Religions are waging wars even at the cost of destruction of lives. Unless the purpose becomes solely the elevation of the awareness of the masses, unless efforts become unified, unless unity consciousness happens among spiritual gurus, there is no protection, hope or continuity. If all the spiritual teachers stay separated, the whole path of sanatana dharma will decay. Unity for the preservation of the age old tradition of tolerance is important, more than ever, at this juncture of time. Character assassination always has a strategy and profit motive behind it. There is a definite vested interest behind character assassination. If you looked into the minds of the so-called moral police, you would see dark desires lurking behind their seemingly benevolent expressions. There is an agenda being played out. It never affects a real saint. Jesus made his point through the cross that he is beyond the cross and because his conviction shook the conscience and consciousness of generations, Christianity was born. People are waking up to Osho more than ever before, many years after his death. Even people of the time never spared Shirdi Sai Baba when they blamed Baba for Radhakrishna Mayi’s pregnancy! Today, Shirdi Baba temples are in every corner of the world. Character assassination has been attempted towards almost every contemporary saint by the then generation and there is someone’s vested interest in it. Who is afraid here -other saints, other religions, businessmen, regular followers who come with expectations or the politicians of the country? Someone is affected for sure by the overwhelming presence of the saint. Someone is benefited by the character assassination of a popular saint. Truth always wins eventually, even though the history that the world gets to see is not always the absolute truth. It is usually choreographed or the opinion of someone who witnessed it or assessed it. This may not be the absolute truth. It is usually a version of the absolute truth. People usually never get to know the absolute truth. Everyone is fed versions or opinions, under the pretext of truth, by the manipulators of the world, or by those who run the world – the politicians, media moguls, other religious heads so on and so forth.
Truth is given on a platter in the form or an enlightened master and society chooses to crucify him just because the truth became blasphemy to conditioned ears accustomed only to the relative truths! With the body thus destroyed, the consciousness that survived starts to perform without hindrance and this becomes an eye opener to many! Oh My God! We missed a chance! The good man has died. Let us make a religion out of him! This is how masters are missed and religions are made.
Commerce rules the world today. Everything sells. Even spirituality is sold in packets as courses. This is not what we want to discuss here. This is not our cup of tea. This commercial network also is a marriage between businessmen, spiritual persons and politicians. This is a completely different story. I do not even want to comment about it because there is nothing spiritual in it except the name or flavor. Control, power, money and possessions are the norm here. This is totally a terrestrial matter. We can talk about it some other time, if it is worth the breath.
Remember, once again, no saints or avatars were accepted during their time. Almost all are all posthumous celebrities. Jesus was a man of flesh and blood at one time. He ate food and slept. Krishna and Radha were two human beings who existed 5000 years ago. They also ate food, drank water, used toilet and slept. Shirdi Sai Baba, Akkalkot Maharaj, Ramana Maharshi, Swami Vivekananda, Buddha were all saints who lived in flesh and blood at some point in time. We remember them and revere them with respect today. This is because they added value to our life. We value their time when they add value to our life. We do not consider the time they spent on themselves, even for meditation. It does not matter to us. Value for us is when value is delivered to the world by any saint or philosopher. But, a word of caution here – all that glitters is not gold. There are many fakes in the world. Usually the ones who possess only acquired knowledge but resemble past masters in form, name or title. We can ignore them. They are not connected to the source. True saints are only those who have crossed over and are connected to the source. We are only talking about these here.
Those who are connected to the source lead a completely different life style. Many will be unpredictable to the core. This is because dharma is their guiding factor, not karma. Vyasa impregnated Amba and Ambalika because the dynasty was coming to an end. He also impregnated the maid, the mother of Vidura. Vidura is a son of Vyasa. If it happened today, there would be hours of debates on our channels supporting and criticizing Ved Vyasa. Vyasa, Vasishta, Krishna, Buddha, Jesus, Ramana Maharshi, Baba and all else knew exactly what they were supposed to do on earth. They never wasted even a moment of their existence on paltry, self-entertaining matters. They did everything for a higher purpose. Relative truth vs. absolute truth
The war is between relative truth and absolute truth. Relative truth is based on faculties of perception and faculties of action that come within a frame called the body. Absolute truth is related to the energy that runs the machine called the body and its associated infrastructure. Relative truths are based on approved methods and patterns. Approved realities and perceptions are those that can also be categorized as morality. Morality is a word that people use when they need to shield themselves. Morality is relative in our society. It changes with generations, time and space. It changes with religions and interpretations too. So, morality is a flexible piece of equipment. Usually, it is used for taking advantage over another by one person or a group of people. Morality is a sensitive tool. It can wreak havoc.
Avadhootas such as John the Baptist, Bhagawan Nithyananda or Sai Baba never cared about this pretentious morality and always reveled in the absolute truth. They went on with their work irrespective of what others thought about them or not. This is a clear sign of a liberated saint. They have no opinion about others nor do they care about others’ opinions. All are karmic beings. There has to be ups and downs in all. This is the variety of existence.
Let us look at the relative truth that propels our life forward. (Well, forward, backward or status quo is debatable). Look at the flip side of the relative truth that we enjoy each day. A politician, a rock star, a film star or a rich man womanizes or abuses drugs, hoards money or accumulates wealth; the whole system comes to their rescue. Even if they are arrested and imprisoned for crimes like stealing public money, they get special preferences in the prisons of the world. Their wealth will buy prestige for them. They get re-elected to power and positions. There are even terrorists and dictators who have massacred people, and yet are honored. (Eg: Polpot of Cambodia who killed more than 2 million children, women and men, died of old age. Even in the last interview with media, he said “I did it for the country” and the world pardoned him!) Men who make ammunitions and weapons that destroy lives are well accepted in society and even considered as protectors or harmless, while someone who tries to do good without consideration for profits or benefits is crucified! Drugs are experimented on humans, prisoners, victims from every species in the name of science and progress.
Human greed has destroyed more than half the forests of the world. Most of the spaces thus made are used for factory farming and human housing. When natural habitats were removed, many species perished. Many species are on the verge of extinction. 7 Billion People are consuming 21 billion birds and animals each year. Half the grain cultivation of the world is used to feed animals for slaughter. 12 pounds of grain can produce one pound of flesh! If 12 pounds of grain were given to one family, that family could survive for a week. One pound of meat is not sufficient for one man for a day! One acre of land can produce 40000 pounds of potatoes, 50,000 pounds of tomatoes and only 250 pounds of meat. What a gross wastage of our resources and environment! Genetically modified food is destroying human species. Naturality is lost. Holocaust is happening every minute. Millions of living beings are slaughtered for food each day across the world. An average factory in a developed nation kills more than 100 cows in an hour! Remember, almost all living beings have an awareness level of a 2 year old human child. They feel love and fear. They feel the pain of separation. They have the ability to love unconditionally. They care for their offspring. Man imprisons them, tortures them and kills them for selfish pleasures. Superiority of race, if there is anything of that sort at all, should be expressed in our ability to express unconditional love and compassion beyond time barriers. It is our ability to express kindness that makes us human. It is our refinement in thoughts, words and action; and not greed and selfishness that truly qualifies us as human! If we can protect and care for other lives, we are worthy of being considered as humans. Otherwise, we are worse than animals, with intelligence but no sensitivity, compassion, kindness or wisdom, let alone awakening. History said “never again” when millions of Jews were slaughtered by Hitler’s militia. Yet, history has seen the same type of crime and gross injustice repeated in Cambodia under Pol Pot when he systematically assassinated men, women and children, during the Nanking Massacre by Japanese military where they made camp fires and burned children alive in front of their mothers in it; and with the killing of countless men and women in Iraq, Egypt, Syria, Afghanistan, Yugoslavia and so many other countries. We still kill thousands of beings, each moment. Is Killing a being of another species considered natural, while killing humans is called murder? Pregnant cows are slaughtered and the calves in their wombs are put inside incinerators. (See my blog on cruelty against animals). This is not punishable by the laws of any country in the world. Where is our sense of justice? Where is justice? When we accept such blatant acts of cruelty, what can we cry for? Crime breeds crime. Insensitivity creates revolution in society. Sexual suppression leads to sexual anarchy. Suppression of anything leads to eventual anarchy. The human mind craves for whatever is denied. This is the nature of the human mind. Every human being walking on earth must focus their attention on things that matter to themselves and the generations to come. They should be concerned about the state of the world today. They should be aware of the destruction that has taken place already and the decay happening each moment. They should know that the world is dying each moment; it is becoming more and more uninhabitable. We are cutting the very branches of the trees that are housing us. In the last 100 years, mankind has destroyed and devastated the earth than ever before since mankind began. Especially in the past 50 years, that is our very time, man kind has consumed the resources of earth much more than ever in the history of mankind. We are on a destruction spree. Totally indiscriminate. Unfortunately, the development in technology is increasing the potential for destruction. Earth has deteriorated to the maximum in the last 100 years. We must be aware of this. We must do something about it. Money
Money is a big deal. This is one of the key issues in the book, as I understand it, against Amma. How does money happen? What attracts money? The answer is simple. Stature attracts wealth. When the person moves from basic gross existence to the subtler aspects of himself, more and grosser get attracted to him or her. The symbol of Ananta Sayana in the Hindu system is a clear sign of this point. Ananta is infinity, the snake which coils as a bed for Maha Vishnu, the preserver of everything to rest upon. Maha Vishnu lies in Yoga Nidra, which is a state of Samadhi, when your consciousness is spread all over the universe and has merged with the universal consciousness, in other words, when you have become the source. In this state, there is no individuality; there is only universality and hence everything that is part of the universe is also part of you. You are the universe. No individual karma. There is only dharma, truthful and unselfish duty in the performance aspect. Lakshmi, the wife of Maha Vishnu sits at His feet. Lakshmi represents wealth and prosperity. In a nutshell, when a person embraces the subtle, wealth is at his feet, or at his disposal. There is purity and legitimacy in this wealth. When a gross person chases gross wealth, it eludes him and often he gets it contaminated. People even sell their souls to earn wealth and suffers through lifetimes. Subtlety of existence is the key for wealth. Subtlety attracts material benefits spontaneously. And by that time, the person who has already embraced the subtle may even have nothing to do with physical wealth. (I believe Amma is in this state. She has nothing to do with wealth. Wealth happens to her spontaneously). They are already in the absolute bliss state of sat (the essence of creation or the essence of the supreme), coming into contact with “chit” (the unit or our substratum which feels and experiences the alienation from the “sat”). The “ananda” or bliss takes place when chit merges with sat, and there is absolute bliss of unity in consciousness. In this state, money or wealth have no value. They come to you spontaneously, because of the simple fact that subtlety always attracts the gross or even wealth.
So, when people talk about Amma hoarding wealth, my opinion is that Amma does not need wealth. She has sufficient wealth inside of her. Real wealth is that which is not visible to human eyes. The wealth of Spiritual bliss! This wealth cannot be conquered. It has got to be earned through the constant shedding of all the identifications that keep blocking the spiritual progress of an individual. Whether Amma has hoarded physical wealth or not, she is obviously truly rich inside. This energy, this wealth, is visible to all, all of the time. She is never tired. And, this inner richness was visible in her calm and composed reply to the scandal to the public. No remorse, no complaints, only love! Emotions and sex
Spurious food leads to contamination of the body and deterioration of health. Spurious emotions will lead to contamination of the mind. The more we acquire such information, store it and energize it, the more it seriously affects our consciousness.
Ignorant people lead a contaminated existence without any knowledge of the levels of contamination they are carrying. Most of what we carry in our minds today is unwanted and insignificant material or trash of the world.
Organs of perception can only see the superficial. They cannot see the third dimension of the individual. And simplicity happens with subtlety. Subtlety brings simplicity. Nothing that the world can ever offer matters to a liberated saint. Then life becomes simple, without the conflicts produced by the mind.
Several political party members and religious leaders have been speaking on television about this matter. Listening to their verbal diarrhea, my thought has been “Those who have not “sinned”, may throw stones at her”. Who has the right to point a finger at Amma? Honestly, I feel that if rape has happened in the ashram, it is important that the victim should immediately bring this to the attention of law makers, police or at least Amma. Forced sex is not acceptable. We have no right though to condemn consensual sex between two adults who indulge in it with full awareness and desire. There is a thick line between the two. One is exploitation, molestation etc while the other is gratification. Every being walking, crawling or flying on earth is bound by food and sex. Nobody can deny that. Food to sustain the body because body is made from elements, and food being a supplement which nourishes the body. Likewise, sexuality sustains the species. No beings on earth other than human beings use food and sex as recreation. Hence, all the rules and regulations pertaining to these two integral aspects of human existence apply only to human beings. If someone who operates in society came to me and said “I have overcome my need for food and I have no sexuality”, I would immediately think – “either he is sick or he is lying”. In spirituality, when chit merges with sat and the person attains states of Samadhi, sexuality and the need for food dissolve. This is a state of bliss. We should not compare that with the mundane existence of an average human being, an ordinary sexual being. Hence, lack of sexuality is something I never buy, when people boast about their detachment. Often, these are the very people who scandalize other people, because what they could not achieve is sour for them in every way and jealousy haunts them. I do not believe that amma is bound by any of the above two. Hours of sitting at one place without food definitely signifies an altered state of consciousness. Who can achieve such feat without no mind state? I cannot buy the idea that amma is a sexual being. She has a human body. In case if she is, then, it is none of our business. She has the right for privacy just like any of us. She has the freedom and eligibility as an Indian citizen to lead her life, within the boundaries of the laws of India.
Again, I insist that forced sex, rape and molestation should be reported to authorities as and when it happens and not 15 years later through a book. This is a big disfavor to fellow saints or sadhus, because if it is true, within 15 years, so many more could have been affected. In this context, please also remember that sexual frustration leads to aggression. Many people who embrace the life of renunciation have arrived there out of tragedies or insecurities and not because of a genuine desire to merge with God. God consciousness is not a choice. It is a state. It has to happen through nullification. It cannot be forced. God realization is a happening. Suppression, oppression or masking of inherent traits never help actualization, on the contrary, it takes one away from the track completely. Even if we are in a market place, or if we are a non-renunciate as per the regular norms, God consciousness can happen at anytime for sure. It does not matter whether you are a family person, whether you are having sex or not. So, when sexuality is suppressed due to the pressure of the robe or renunciation, aggression can happen. Whatever is suppressed will erupt sooner or later. Hence, either obtain gratification at the right time, in the right way, or increase awareness to surpass bodily needs by withdrawing the senses from objects of sensuality. This is easier when a person chooses no contact with any being of its kind. Perfect renunciation! When a saint is constantly inter-acting with the sundry people of society who carry various emotions, fears, desires and perceptions as well as sexuality, it is very likely that control of the senses can become a big problem. Hence I suggest that consensual sex should be fine because it is a choice that the person makes. Non-consensual is definitely unacceptable and should be condemned. Once again, I fail to see why an event is not conveyed as and when it happens. Why does one have to wait all these years, as is the case for the author of the book, to come out with such revelations, 15 years after abandoning Amma’s ashram? There could be a conspiracy. There could be vested interests. This is my reading.
I personally feel that each being that walks on earth deserves to have privacy. It does not matter whether he is a bird, animal or a human being. It does not matter whether he or she is a saint, businessman, celebrity, public figure or a person among 1000s of others. Everyone has a personal constitution, character, needs and desires, apart from the generic ones such as food, sleep, toilet, and sex. I believe that we should allow this privacy to all individuals. Why are we haunting celebrities? Why can’t we accept their teachings instead of their bedroom stories? Bedroom stories never elevate anyone’s consciousness. They only tickle or rather contaminate one’s inner space. The teachings though could be quite elevating and purgatorial. Please have a conscious thought about this. Do not get carried away with scandals or others’ opinions. Just ensure you remain objective at all times. And keep asking the question – “Do we have the right or criticize another at all?”. Certainly, raise your voice against injustice and violence; but, only with first hand confirmation, not because of others words or opinions. We may have tremendous regrets about it in the future.
Recently, some people who came to see me asked my opinion about the life of Jesus. Questions asked included “Did he survive the cross? Did he live the rest of his life in India? Did he have a child with Mary Magdalene?” My answer was straight and simple. “I do not know and I do not care. Jesus’s public life ended with the cross. As far as the world is concerned, there ended his physical relevance. If he lived beyond the crucifixion, it has no value for us, as his public life ended with the cross. His teachings survived through his followers. This is the relevance that he left behind. We need to be concerned only about that. Seekers should concentrate only on the teachings of the guru for their personal growth.We have got Jesus’s teachings through the mouth or interpretation of his disciples, those who walked with him. Nobody told any further stories of his life after his crucifixion or about his further life. We should stick to the relevance of a saint. I look at life in terms of effective years and non-effective years. Effective years are those when the saint was contributing to the world with what he had, the non-effective years (as far as the world is concerned), are the ones which the saint spent for himself. So, if we stick to this method, we shall remain reasonably clear and also pure inside always.” Furthermore, why would I care if Jesus had sex with Mary? How does that help our spiritual growth? I would like to think of it in this way. First of all, it is no big deal as it would have been consensual sex. Secondly, if it happened, it would have been for the sake of fulfillment as unfulfilled desires become fuel for another life. Hence, it would be better to complete and exit from this life. So, before we judge another, we should look within. Thirdly, does this information help us today in anyway? Is it elevating our consciousness at all? Or are we just trying to find excuses for our own fickle desires or character deficiencies? Hence, I would urge the reader to marry the teachings and not the guru. Use the teachings for one’s own higher evolution and not to choose for intellectual comparisons and eventual judgment.
If Lord Krishna was living today, he would have created more scandals than Bhagawad Gitas. 🙂 His relationship with Radha alone is enough. Apparently Radha was already married when Krishna used to visit Barsana, which was a few kilometers away from Vrindavan, under the pretext of grazing cows, to see Radha. Barsana was her husband’s house. Today, we worship Radha and Krishna. We celebrate their romance. His legitimate wives such as Rukmini and Satyabhama are not worshipped as much as Radha. When we can accept this, why then are we so fascinated about a holy mother’s private life? I am confident that a saint of Amma’s stature is well beyond all the needs of the body. It is obvious. But, society loves scandals, especially sex scandals. Why are sex scandals so important and how do they sell so much? Because of generations of sex starvation and pseudo morality. In a sex starved world controlled by pseudo morality, the best tool for character assassination is a sex scandal. The media loves it because sleaze gets maximum viewership. The very rich and the very poor are immune to it. They do what they like and let the winds of morality blow wherever with their money or lack of it. Lack of money gives freedom as there is nothing to lose, just as having money also gives freedom because you can buy almost anything with it including respect in the society. Actually speaking, it is a waste of time. As I said earlier, aggression which becomes oppression for some, should be controlled by the law. Otherwise, we should definitely respect the privacy of every person. The more suppressed we are, the more aggressive we become within. This will take us further away from a peaceful existence.
Infinite Love, Unconditionally
Excerpts from a few chat conversations with Antonino Moreti (Italy). The full version could possibly appear in some Italian magazine, if it is worth it. 🙂 Anyways, this could be interesting reading for some. The tone of the discussion is friendly, casual, leisurely and certainly non-provocative. Just to introduce A.Moreti, he is a spiritual enthusiast and a theatre artist. He liked my blogs because of “its straightforwardness, clarity and honesty and above all it makes sense.” And he thought it would be “interesting” to explore the man behind those words and ideas. And we communicated briefly, a few times because of time constraints. So, what follows is only about a fourth of what we have been discussing over chat. Enjoy…
A.M: Looking into your eyes, this question wells up in my mind. Are You SHIVA?
M: Yes. I am SHIVA.
A.M: And the other beings of the universe? Who are they?
M: All are SHIVA. All are units of SHIVA. All are drops of the same ocean.
A.M: Are you sure?
M: Yes. I am sure. I am witnessing Shiva every moment. All are Shiva.
A.M. Who or what is SHIVA?
M: Shiva is beyond any definitions at all. Attempting to define Shiva would be an adventure. A real Mission Impossible. 🙂 Shiva can only be experienced and not intellectually understood. A bucket cannot contain the water of the ocean.
Shiva has two distinct identities in human understanding which blurs at times. Shiva as the Supreme Parabrahma and Shiva as a finite entity who is married to Goddess Parvathy and has children. Shiva as the house holder represents human existence, a god with wife and children, yet supremely, spiritually powerful. He is a householder and a master at the same time. Master of masters – Supreme master and Saint of all saints – Supreme Saint. He floats with time and is timeless too.
On the other hand, Shiva as the Supreme Parabrahma is formless and beyond time and space. He is the indivisible unity. This Shiva has no beginning or end. He is Parabrahma. Shiva Linga represents that Shiva. It is multi dimensional or all-dimensional. We also worship Shiva as a finite entity who is easy to get annoyed and angry (Kshipra Kopi) and also easy to please.(Kshipra Prasadi)
Here, I am talking about Shiva as Parabrahma, just the way Lord Krishna represents the Supreme in Bhagawad Gita. All identifications of such elevated consciousness are only with the Supreme formless which is beyond all dimensions. Another aspect of Shiva is Dakshinamoorthy, the knowledge incarnate. Shiva came as a “chandala”, a man of “low caste” in Indian caste system. (In reality, it is the individual combination of Gunas and the level of awareness that determines the stature of an individual, as proved here by the appearance of Shiva to Adi Shankara – and birth in a particular caste does not guarantee awareness. Krishna, Jesus, Buddha, Bhagawan Nithyananda and Shirdi Baba were not from priestly caste.). He came with four dogs to give wisdom to Adi Shankara (four dogs represent four vedas) (Dogs represent protection. Vedas are meant to protect Dharma. Protection aspect of Vedas are represented by Dogs – Eg: Dogs accompany Lord Dattatreya, the preserver of Dharma. And Lord Dattatreya is unity of Trinity. The principle of vedas accompany Him in the form of dogs. Dogs are also faithful, loyal and always alert) , Shiva as hunter (Vettakkorumakan), Hanumanji is also considered as an (amsha) essence of Shiva…So on and so forth…
A.M. In Hindu tradition – I consider Hinduism as a path, a tradition and not a religion because there are 330 Million Gods in the tradition and there are many castes and sub-castes within the tradition – Brahma, Vishnu and Shiva have equal importance. So, why only Shiva? Pardon me if this question is stupid.
M: No. The question is relevant. You are right. Hinduism is not a religion, it is a path, a tradition. There are 330 Million Gods, because 1/3 of you is God element. The soul element is the God element. Only if you worship the soul element within you, will you merge with the supreme soul, Parabrahman. Only if you recognize the soul element or God element in every being, will you be able to witness the all-pervading God who dwells in all beings. As long as we see differences, we are in ignorance. When you look around, if you only see God, you are complete. You are one with God. The path to Parabrahma is our soul. There are 330million people in the world (a centuries old rough estimate which says “33 crores”. It also implies 33% God element in every being-roughly 1/3rd.) and each person is essentially a part of God, irresepective of whether one knows it or not. So, we have 330 million Gods. If we have 7 billion population on earth today, that means we have 7 Billion Gods too. Still 33% remains constant. Plus all other beings of the universe. All are God. Everything is God. There is nothing apart from God.
This also means that one can follow and accept any God, only if it suits one’s inherent constitution. Each individual’s constitution is unique. Brahma, Vishnu and Shiva represent three aspects of the Supreme Parabrahma. That means, creation, maintenance and dissolution. They have equal importance. They all are same. All manifestations are formed out of the Supreme un-manifested. Just some variety in subtlety, but essentially the same. Supreme Un-manifested is raw energy. So, each one of the trinity are equal and equally powerful. My mention about SHIVA is SHIVA as Parabrahma, not an entity with the limited role of dissolution. In that context, Shiva, Vishnu and Brahma are one and the same. There is no trinity. There is only unity. There is only Parabrahma. Behind all manifestations is one energy. That is Parabrahma. The real source. All forms represent the formless. All forms have materialized from and will dissolve back into the formless.
A.M. What is consciousness?
M: Shiva is consciousness. Consciousness is Shiva.
A.M. So, what are we?
M: Consciousness. Shiva.
A.M. Is there any degree variation?
M: There are no degree variations. Consciousness is full and complete. But, there is degree variation in awareness. Some experience fully, some partially, some randomly and some do not experience at all. Those who constantly experience, will exist in bliss and silence, and those who seldom experience will keep talking theories, book knowledge or someone’s words. 🙂
A.M. Mohanji, I know that you have not accumulated wealth in this life and that you prefer to spend it in support of the poor and helpless. Is there anything worth nurturing in this life, apart from Spirituality?
M: Nothing is worth nurturing in this life apart from awareness. Even spirituality is not worth nurturing. Spirituality is a state, which is natural and is also an ingredient of our existence. If spirituality becomes repetitive and ritualistic, it loses its purpose. Spirituality usually intensifies and dilutes as per the circumstance and necessity. Spirituality happens to all, sooner or later, because it is related to spirit, the same energy that runs our life! 🙂 So, whether we nurture it or not, it will happen.
Usually, people access spirituality only when helplessness is at its peak. When there is nowhere else to go, we turn to God. This is human nature. There is nothing worth nurturing external to us. We will have to leave everything behind when we leave, including wealth and relationships.
AWARENESSS is the only aspect within us that is worth nurturing. Awareness that we nurture grows with us, through lifetimes. It is worth nurturing. Awareness is our connectivity into consciousness, ability to ‘plug in’ at will. Just like we grow from class to class, year by year, we grow in awareness through life times. As awareness grows, higher consciousness becomes accessable. It has always been available, but, until we have the faculty to access the higher consciousness, we cannot enjoy it. Awareness is the path that helps us reach higher realms of consciousness. In order to cross the mighty ocean of duality and reach the realm of non-dual consciousness, we need the help of higher awareness. It is worth investing in. It is the only thing worth investing in and it is purely an internal matter. Nothing external, even your external Guru, can only direct you to your internal Guru. Guru helps to remove your ignorance or Maya, by showing the light of wisdom. But, it is your increased awareness that makes you realize who you actually are!
A.M. What practice helps develop higher awareness?
M: Witnesshood. (Sakshi Bhav) Being in NOW.
A.M. What is real wealth?
M: That which can be carried with you when you die. That wealth is awareness. Only awareness. This is why meditation is important. Contemplation on truth is important. Right understanding is important. Death cannot remove awareness from you. Awareness travels with the soul along with other samskaaras and unfulfilled desires, when it sheds the body. Death snatches everything else away from an existence. So, the only thing that is worth striving for, is awareness. Awareness happens from within. Money and wealth is always existing outside of you. It is certainly good for terrestrial existence. You can take only what is within you, at the time of death. That means, only what is close to the soul can be taken by the soul. Body and everything outside of the body must be left behind. We must be aware of this truth always.
A.M: How do we know that awareness is growing in us?
M: Usual expression of higher awareness is decreased dependancy on everything outside of you. We will automatically distance ourselves from greed, selfishness, anger, dissatisfaction with what we have and craving for what we do not have, perpetual sadness, jealousy, competition with one another, comparisons, inertia and accumulation oriented-ness etc; and we spontaneously shift to selflessness, kindness, compassion, Unconditional Love…. Self-sufficiency and happiness with or without a thing, anything, is a clear sign of increased awareness. Having everything and not needing anything is real richness. Real richness is a state of mind. That is when nothing outward attracts us anymore. Of course, even while awareness increases, samskaaras, still in-built in our nature, continue to express forth. But our dependency level will change. We start to lead a liberated existence. In such an existence, a particular ritual, meditation, manthra, chanting or anything that usually makes us feel happy or comfortable will not be a necessity anymore. We will not be bound by anything. No habits bind us. We stay liberated from within. Such a person can walk any path, do anything – but nothing will touch him nor will he become dependent on it. If these aspects of higher awareness are practiced consciously, awareness will grow automatically. So, reversal also works! 🙂 That is, when we consciously practice the visible terrestrial signs of higher awareness, it will eventually lead to higher awareness.
A.M. Mohanji, I like your style, your clarity and if I may, straight to the point approach. Tell me, how do we gain that clarity?
M: Simple. Be me. Be my consciousness. Simply – BE.
A.M. What is knowledge?
M: Just an intellectual requirement.
A.M. Does knowledge exist?
M: Apart from you? NO. Apart from you? YES.
A.M. I do not understand.
M: You are knowledge incarnate. Everything is within you. So, knowledge does not exist apart from you. You are knowledge incarnate, yet your intellect fails to recognise that and seeks knowledge outside of you, using your senses. This is highly limited. Too much of limitations. One has lots of food at home; good quality food. Yet, he prefers to go out and eat from the street. The beautiful ocean within us goes unrecognized and the small pool outside is appreciated. It takes lots of awareness to recognize what lies within you, instead we try to find happiness outside of us. So, in the context of intellect, Yes, knowledge is outside of you. So, while the very truth is “NO” as all knowledge is within you; while in terms of Maya, it is – “YES”.
A.M. Understood. So, what exists outside of us?
A.M. Then why is this illusion? Why is this drama?
M: Just multiple expressions of Maya. Maya at work! Multiple expressions of Duality. Relativity at work.
A.M. I agree. When everything boils down, when all waves subside, the still ocean remains.
M: Absolutely. And the ocean itself is Maya, if you are witnessing the ocean from outside. If you recognize that you are the ocean yourself, then, it would be just a realization – Aham Brahmasmi! There is no “me” . There is nothing apart from me. 🙂 There is nothing to “know”.
A.M. Ah! WOW! You said it so simply. That is a profound truth indeed!.
M: This is the same truth that all the saints and yogis have told us ever since time began. This information is nothing new. 🙂
A.M. Mohanji, it is a week since we communicated. I have been assimiliating what you discussed with me so far.
M: And did you finally realize that it is all a bunch of crap? 🙂
A.M. 😮 On the contrary, I feel this would be useful for the generations to come.
M: 😮 Do not worry about generations to come. We have no real control on the future. There will be others to guide the generations to come. We have only NOW to consider. Is it useful NOW? Yes? Then it is worth it.
A.M. My cousin Liz says she is in love with you. She wants to marry you. 😮
M: HA HA. What a joke! Anyways, I am happily married indeed, in the terrestrial terms! But sure, Liz is certainly welcome to marry my consciousness. 🙂 That is the real me. It is worth it as it is permanent. As a human being, I do not “exist”. And this body is temporary, fragile and highly perishable. All are welcome to marry my consciousness. 🙂 16008 women married Krishna’s consciousness and attained liberation. Consciousness is eternal. Through my consciousness, I can have many “wives”, beyond gender, space and time. 🙂 Moreover, terrestrial marriage is usually a deep entanglement, and often it leads to jealousy and kind of ownership, unless higher awareness and lack of expectation is developed from deep within. Marriage should never be based on boredom, escapism, expectation and infatuation, in terrestrial terms. Marriage should always be purpose-bound; two people coming together for a larger purpose in existence which leads to perfect fulfillment of joint karmic agenda. And I believe Liz is at least 40 years older than me – so it is important for her to marry my consciousness before it is too late? 🙂
A.M. HA HA…. What is marriage for you?
A.M. Completion of?
M: Journey. Completion in Life. Completion of a Karmic life, objectively speaking.
A.M. Mohanji, what is your religion?
M: Religion of Love. All other religions are just barriers, walls. I only believe in Unconditional Love beyond all human barriers.
A.M. Mohanji, how do you handle three or more distinctly different planes of existence equally? A. Professional B. Spiritual C. Charity D. Family E. Socio-commercial and never mix them ever? Where do you get so much energy from? Don’t you get tired?
M: This is simple. We are everything. We are a father, husband, son, boss, servant, social being, commercial being etc etc. When you operate, be extremely objective. Do not blur between tasks. And do not procrastinate. JUST DO IT. Work should be considered as sacred – as worship. If we know what we are doing, and if our mind is firm on our activity of the moment without oscillation, time is aplenty. Procrastination saps a lot of time from our lives and leaves us tired and inefficient. People think a lot and avoid all actions and later complain that life is not treating them well or is worthless! I fail to understand them. 🙂 🙂 Lastly, I have never been afraid to walk alone. I do not understand the meaning of the word FEAR! Fear paralyzes us and marries or binds us with forceful inaction. I believe in truthful action where fear has no existence. When you love what you do, when your life is purposeful, there will not be any tiredness, or boredom. Tedium is a by-product of having to do what you do not enjoy doing. I enjoy what I do. I do not get tired. My path is clear and life is purpose-bound. I am a passionate man. 🙂
A.M. Important Question: What is Shaktipat?
M: 🙂 Important Answer: Read my past blogs. 🙂
A.M. Seriously, Mohanji, I would like a precise answer from you. I have read what you have said earlier. I want to give something more precise to the world. You could do that through me? 🙂
M: Whatever I ever gave is precise. Shaktipat is the infusion of a higher energy into the often static lower energy planes in existence. The higher energy activates everything dormant. It brightens up the cells and rejuvenates the existence. It removes blockages and also changes or upgrades the frequency of the receiver.
A.M. What about Pranapath and Shivapath?
M: Theory is the same. Intensity is different and effect is different. How does a stone become a deity? When the prana or the power of the deity is infused into the stone in a ritualistic manner, the stone becomes God. Likewise, we are stones of existence or at least stone-like, often insensitive and unresponsive. 🙂 Please do not take me wrong – no arguements please. 😮 Just understand the context, the example, in its light. I am not calling men – stones. So, when matter gets life, it becomes an entity. Likewise, through Shaktipat, we rejuvenate and re-vitalise the life force which elevates the receivers. It takes them to higher dimensions. It changes their inner software. There are different manthras and methods for installing different deities, right? Likewise, there are differences in the energy levels and capacities of each. Each person gets only what he/she can handle. What happens when a 20 watt bulb gets a 1000 watt infusion? Just for argument’s sake, what happens when a normal human womb receives the soul of an Avatar?(It is highly unlikely) The womb will not be able to hold that soul for long. The womb will burst. Of course, an avatar always chooses the right mother to deliver it; the entity who is powerful enough to bring forth an avatar. I am describing this only for understanding’s sake. Natural frequency of an individual is never violated when Shaktipat is delivered. This is why outstanding results are recorded from around the world.
All of us have our set of blockages as we have our levels of awareness. Shaktipat shifts the level of consciousness in an individual, burning the karmas that are blocking the way and removing blockages in multiple levels such as Physical, Emotional, Intellectual, Spiritual, so on and so forth. Who will be benefited the most from Shaktipat? Those who are open and receptive. Receptivity makes all the difference. Some people come with a closed mind and complain that they felt nothing. Such people blame me as ineffective and will never accept that they were not open to receiving the Shaktipat. 🙂 Human nature!
A.M. We in Europe are a bit addicted to Lineage. 🙂 Does lineage of a Guru matter?
M: In the family of a legend, can you expect a similar prodigy in each generation? Most of our past Great Masters just happened or appeared from nowhere. They shone bright just because of their stature. A Guru might be of high calibre. It does not mean that any of his disciple are of his calibre. Likewise, look at the whole Datta tradition, individuals became prominant because of their stature. So, stature is more important. Spiritual Stature. Pedigree cannot guarantee stature. It can only guarantee status. Often people mistake status for stature. Status may get us name, position and fame. But, stature has got to be acquired through lifetimes of spiritual practice. Who cared about the lineage of Adi Shankara, Vyasa, Vasishta, Shirdi Sai Baba? Everyone respected their stature. So, stature has much more value than status, pedigree or lineage. Lineage only tells about the path, and perhaps guarantees status; but can never guarantee stature.
A.M. Mohanji, A funny question – Are you real? I often feel that you are not real, that you do no exist.
M: 🙂 It is not a funny question. It is a good question. No. I am also an illusion. I do not exist.
A.M. How can I gain clarity?
M: Shift in consciousness brings forth the corresponding clarity.
A.M. How can there be differences? How can there be high and low?
M: There are no highs and lows in the absolute sense. There are only variations in vision and awareness. Physical manifestations or representations are only expressions of relativity. How can there be high without a low? How can relativity be expressed without duality?
A.M. Relativity confuses….
M: HA HA.. Answer lies within the question itself. Go beyond relativity – confusion ends there. 🙂
A.M. How long will you work in the highly competitive commercial world or among the pretensions and the heavy gross?
M: As long as this heart beats, I will work, but perhaps not in the highly competitive commercial world of profits and pretensions. I am proving a point here. We can operate in contradicting worlds with equal ease and effortlessness, if we have the will to. We can remain pure in all worlds if you choose to. Escapism is not a solution. Be at home where ever we are. Environment does not matter. Our deepest determination and will matters. And spirituality is not only for saints. It is accessible to all, it is inherent in all. Renunciation is a state of mind. You need not go to Himalayas for that.
A.M. Mohanji, we cannot have enough of you.
M: I thought the world is fed up of me. 🙂 Mohanji is not a person. It is a continuation. It is a constitution or a constellation. It is consciousness. It will always exist, even after this body goes back to where it came from.
A.M. How are you today Mohanji? You were not well, last week
M: Consciousness is the same. Body keeps floating up and down. 🙂
A.M. Mohanji, what do you see in people, when you address large gathering? Their body, soul or karma?
M: I see SHIVA. All are Shiva. All are expressions of myself, just acting out individual karmas. No differences between one and the other.
A.M. Between man and woman too?
M: What has gender got to do with it? All are same. What is the gender of the soul? What is the gender of Parabrahma, the supreme soul?
A.M. Then why does Hindu religion have Gods and Goddesses? Why does Shiva have a wife? Why do you have a wife too?
M: HA HA 🙂 A. Everything are reflections of Parabrahma. All are one. B. Duality is the prime expression of relativity. So, there is two. “One” represents unity. There is nothing apart from one. Two represents relativity – You and Me. When you and me unite, we become one – Unity. Shiva is the energy aspect while Parvati is the material aspect. Expressions become complete when they unite. But, essentially, man is an extension or woman and vice versa. Shiva is also Ardha Nariswara (Man and woman in one) I have married because this completes this soul’s journey too. Womanhood is sacred. Woman is mother. This is why we worship woman.
A.M. Your answers amaze me. So, all Gods and Goddesses are one?
M: Essentially one. All Gurus are one too. All knowledge is one. You are Unity. When you work through the body that you have rented for the time being, you feel divided from the Father. When you return the body to earth, you unite back again with your Father. We have attributed tasks and purposes to Gods and Goddesses. They represent that task. We have created deities based on certain systems, worship methods and certain mathematical calculations. If there are changes in that, there will be changes in deities too. There are Mulamanthras for each deity – the root manthra. The root sustains the deity. The root manthra maintains its attributed strength. There is nothing apart from ONE. What ever is apart from ONE is Illusion, Maya.
A.M. Did you ever fear that people may not understand you?
M: No. I never had any insecurity and will never have. I do not keep any agenda.
A.M. What is FEAR for you?
M: Illusion. Fear does not exist.
A.M. Do you have any fears?
A.M. Even the loss of the near and dear ones?
M: I have already experienced the loss of near and dear ones in this life. I know how it feels.
A.M. What actually is terrestrial life?
M: Terrestrial life is only about various experiences.
A.M. When you look at the world, what do you see?
M: A Divine Comedy or Errors. HA HA
A.M. Life is comedy or errors for you?
M: Yes. It is a grand joke. I laugh at the seriousness of people. All are grumpy and serious. People are tired and wrinkled. HA HA 🙂 People are afraid to laugh – as if their teeth will fall off. HA HA With all that seriousness, they will die and go. What do they gain? I always laugh at life. There is nothing to be serious about here. It is indeed a comedy of errors. There is only this moment at our disposal. We do not even know our morrows. Then why worry at all?
A.M. Why errors?
M: Errors due to wrong identifications. Such as people think I am Mohan. I am Mohan for this world. I am not just Mohan. When I die, this body will be called Mohan’s body. People think they are their mind or intellect. Even that is not true. A philosopher said “I think therefore I am”. So, what about him when he does not think – such as, in deep sleep state? Just look around. You can see wrong identifications all over. People believe they are something else and behave accordingly. HA HA
A.M. Last question. What is your real name? Why do you use Para Brahma as your FB name?
M: HA HA. 🙂 My official name is P.K.Mohan. P – family name and K – name of my Grand father. It is still my official name. Mohanji is the name that is used in the spiritual circle. This was initiated by a saint. And he started calling me Mohanji first and everyone followed afterwards. Mohan is the name and “Ji” is a respectful way of addressing. I do not call myself Mohanji. HA HA.
Moreover, I always sign off as “M” because the alphabet “M” usually has no value by itself. It needs something more, some more alphabets to gain meaning. So, I am just an alphabet, meaningless by itself, transitory, temporary and momentary. I keep myself as insignificant as I can. I have used the name Para Brahma in my Face Book page because, that is the mirror that I am showing to the world. Parabrahma is unity. Two words Para and Brahma cannot exist as duality. They must merge into one. It exists as an illusion. It must merge and is always merged as an entity. Secondly, it is a reminder as to who you are and where you belong to. You are Parabrahma and you belong there. Parabrahma is the Father, from whom all dualities have originated. So, this might tell you that we all are one and there is no duality amongst us and what ever we see as duality is just a grand illusion. So, the concept is the same as applying sacred ash on our forhead. Ash is where we came from and ash is where we will return to. We are just a handful of ash in reality. The ash on the forehead is a reminder. It teaches humility. Likewise, I used that name to remind who you are and what you think you are now. Two words represent duality, truth and illusion. I exist beyond all these.
David woke up from a beautiful, profound dream. It was, in a way, both elevating and disturbing. He saw himself as a boy, along with his grandfather who is no more, strolling down on the banks of a river. It was evening. Sun was turning red. Birds were flying home after a full day of outing. There was a gentle, cool breeze. The village was very familiar. He has been there before. Grandfather was holding David’s hand and he seemed a bit extra cautious about David’s security. As they walked through the walkway running parallel to the river, they witnessed and experienced many beautiful sights and sounds. What caught David’s attention and his waking memory was a prayer that came floating from one of the small huts, apparently from the throat of some children. It went somewhat like this…
“Different spaces, different times
Oh Lord, thou carried me like a faithful boatman.
Safe and Secure, Safe and Secure…
Through the time and seasons alike
“Different faces, different tunes
Oh Lord, thou protected me like a mother bird, her children.
Safe and Secure, Safe and Secure
Through summer, winter, spring and rain.”
A feeling of powerful protection enveloped David. It gave a strong feeling of re-assurance. Grandfather’s hands and the lovely prayer accompanied and re-inforced his feeling of well-being. David called his grand father ‘BABA’. He was deeply connected with his grandfather, to an extent that they knew every subtle vibrations of each other, let alone profound emotions. As they walked on, he asked his beloved grandfather:
“Baba, where are we going?”
Baba smiled and said: “I want to introduce you to my friends. We went to school together, we played in the same team, and grew up together, just like you, Mark and Alf.”
David smiled, “Baba, I cannot imagine you as a young man, let alone a boy”. 🙂
Baba laughed aloud. “I was not born old. 🙂 I was not this old always”. 🙂
Baba was a tall man with slightly drooping shoulders, one side of his shoulder bent slightly to the front and to one side. He was of extraordinary character. He was always in command of every situation. He was never seen emotional. Always jovial, calm and collected. He always used his intellect and quite knew what he was doing. David has never seen him idle, even at his old age.
Their journey ended at a graveyard in front of a church near the river. David was surprised.
“Where are your friends? Will they come here? Are we meeting them here?” This was indeed an uncommon place for any friendly get-together.
Baba said “No. They are already here”.
Baba took David to a stone which read “William Smith”. Baba said “Will has been my classmate and my best friend. He was the best man at my wedding too. An unshakable strong man, a brave heart. He had worked hard in foreign lands, made his money and returned home after his retirement. We met after a long time. He was a fire-brand in his youth, daring and charming. When he came back after all those years, he looked tired and withdrawn, a bit too distracted. He seemed more interested in isolation and hid himself from the society, as much as he could. I tried to bring him back to some old personal memories to revive his old vigor. But he showed no interest at all. He had three children. They all fought with him at his old age over property and money. They even abused him and never agreed with what ever he told or asked them, or wanted them to do. Finally, he died broken hearted, alone. Will was once a strong man, everybody’s hero. I could not see him so heart-broken and deserted. This is what old age does for some. David, if we are not careful enough to nurture relationships while we can, later on, life could bring isolation and alienation. That can even be called “living in hell”, with no love, warmth and togetherness, exactly the things that one craves for, when one is weak and unprotected.
David said: “Baba, are all your friends dead?”
Baba smiled and said “Not all. Some are still alive. But, they are old, you see. Most cannot move on their own. They need help. They are heavily dependent on others. Old age often makes people invalid and handicapped.”
David felt quite relieved that his grandfather can move on his own and is relatively healthy to that standard. Yet, David experienced a strange kind of uneasiness creeping up his throat. He felt that he would get depressed by meeting all these old friends of his grandfather in the graveyard. Yet, he knew that Baba had a purpose, even though it was not quite entertaining for David. He said: “Baba, let us go home. I am not feeling good.”
Baba said: “David, two more introductions and we shall go home.” Baba tried to cheer David up who was slowly settling into his gloom.
The next tomb stone read “Stephen Summer”. “He has been our pilot man.” Baba spoke as if it was a joke. David was too withdrawn by then, to enjoy any jokes. The whole situation made him extremely uneasy.
“Even when we were young, he wanted to become a pilot and fly aircrafts. He got into the army and moved into the air command segment and became a pilot. He has participated in many wars and bombed many people and places. And that was his deepest regret in his later years. Fighting a nagging cancer in his abdomen, though looked after well by his devoted wife Lisa, whenever we met for a coffee, he would say “How many people have I killed in my young days!!!. Women, Children, Men, Old and Young. I do not know their faces, thank God. But, they haunt me every night. Faceless bodies come forth and ask me “What did we do to you, to destroy our lives? We were just beginning to live, taste the sweet and sour buds of life, you wrenched us out of our beds. How will you pay us back, how will you give us back our lives?” Regrets were eating into his flesh. Steve repented day and night. He even welcomed death as a solace to his aching conscience. He refused to be treated and used the pain that his illness profusely gave as a kind of purgatorial from his sins. He thought death would finally redeem him. Helplessness tormented him. Finally, he gave up and here he stays”, Baba pointed out at the grave stone.
The last one was that of Eric. He was an actor. He was after fame and recognition. He became addicted to intoxicants and died quite young. He could not ever find a stable relationships and even though he had many children from different women, there were none to take care of him, or look after him at his death bed. He died alone, in a hospital, with a longing to see his children and experience their love, which he never nurtured when they were young. I tried my best to convince some of them to go and meet their father who was in his death bed. None showed any interest and gave me lame excuses. He never cared for his children when he was young. The children never cared for him when he was old, sick and helpless. Life is like a mirror. You reap what you sow.”
“As for me, I have been quite mediocre, compared to them all, and I did not go anywhere from this place. They all saw the world outside this village. I did not see much beyond this village. I saw only my inner world. My world has been within me. The whole world was within me. In the end, they could not hold on to their large world, but I could. I am not boasting, but just proving a point. I learned to make buildings and do some farming which made my living. More than grains, I sowed love and I nurtured it. I distributed it in this village itself, as best as I could. Your grandmother was a great soul. She never allowed any visitor to leave our house with an empty stomach. More than the food, our genuine care satisfied our visitors. We have always been quite self-sufficient, yet our neighbors always shared their happiness with us, just like we did. They cared for us, and considered us worthy of their time and space. There is no substitute for HARD WORK. There is no substitute for LOVE.”
“I have been busy and my life has been quite rich and meaningful. As a hobby, I learned astrology. I never practiced astrology for money. I just guided a few who came to me to shed some light on some of their personal confusions. Astrology is ability to read into one’s destiny using the movement pattern of planets and stars. If destiny was a variable, astrology would fail. Fortunately, it is not. Destiny is constant, pre-determined. The science of astrology is based on a definite road map called destiny, a pre-planned journey that one takes in one life time. It is a science. It is sheer mathematics. The element of free will and the element of grace can always alter that to some extent.
Thus, I lived a simple life, away from the rush of the towns and lived long enough to see my wandering friends dead and buried! How many dreams and aspirations we chewed on during our youth! How many dreams we weaved. Some were realized, and some left unfulfilled. I have no regrets. It is time for me to go too. I may not survive this summer. My time is near. Death does not frighten me, nor am I worried about my life after death.”
“I do not know any God. I have not seen God. No God has come to me and guided me, let alone come to criticize me, beat me, or judge me. I believe that for the hungry, God is food and for the cold, God is warmth. In the summer, God comes as a cool breeze and in the spring, God appears as blossoms. I believe there is no God apart from its various forms. I believe God expresses itself through us too, as kindness, compassion and Love, while Devil, if there is one, expresses itself as jealousy, hatred, anger, and revenge. I do not know any grand philosophy nor do I want to know. What is the use of knowing it, if I cannot use it? I do not want anything that I cannot use or practice.”
David then saw his grandfather, grandmother, his parents and all his cousins in an outdoor party near a beautiful river. All were singing and dancing and there was immense love and sense of belonging-ness in the air. David sang many songs and had lots of fun.
There was a lot of food and drinks on the table, and when he touched a piece of bar-be-cued meat of a suckling pig-ling, (a specialty at important gatherings) he heard the voice of his grandfather again, even though he could not see him. “Remember David, that baby pig did not die happy, for you. It was forcefully killed. It was murdered for your enjoyment. Snatched from its mother’s breast while it was drinking its mother’s milk. Its mother is still alive and missing her child. Some of its brothers and sisters are still alive. Eat with clear understanding. Eat with awareness.” David dropped the meat. He could not consume any meat anymore.
He woke up with clear memory of the entire dream and he knew that his dear departed grandfather has just conveyed a very important and life-changing message to him. He had just used the medium of a dream to convey it, because he had already left this world and there was no way he could talk to David.
This was a crucial point in David’s life as he was getting more and more involved in a particular path of education that he chose and he was getting too introverted, indifferent and insensitive towards the outside world because of it. Even though his parents never interfered, he had taken a lot of responsibilities onto himself and was already suffering the pressures, pains and weight of it. Anxiety over possibility of failures or defeats were also affecting his self-esteem. David got a clear remedy to his dilemma from his Grand Father’s message. He decided “LIFE HAS GOT TO BE SIMPLE! Why do we make it complicated? We must definitely work hard. But, we must love our work. Love for work will remove all pressures and pains. If we love what we do, old age cannot make dents in our life.” The life of Baba’s three close friends clearly made David understand the futility of mad pursuits. Everything eventually ends up in the grave. All emotions, ego, ambitions end up at the same place. A life filled with love and laughter is worth more than the millions in the bank. He decided that he should appreciate what has been given to him, rather than be always dissatisfied, focusing on what he could not achieve as yet. He stopped comparing himself with others and judging or criticizing himself. He understood that he has always been in pursuit of something or the other that he did not have, ignoring everything that he already had. He realized that failing to enjoy the available materials or relationships always lead one to permanent disillusionment and eventual depression. He also realized that constant resistance to everything also consumes a lot of energy and it makes one tired. David decided to shift his life in 180 degrees. Love is the remedy. That is all he needed to learn and remember. Love is all one needs. He woke up to a completely new life.
P.S. Sometimes, protecting angels will take you to the astral plane and deliver such experiences. Its memory stays, if it is relevant to your terrestrial life. In order to keep the memories, directions and guidelines would be well engraved in the conscious memory, if that information was expected to be used in one’s life. It would be presented as a dream, even though it is an astral experience, a total communion. This is just for your understanding. Please understand that there are millions of permutations and combinations possible in our existence. So, do not think in terms of any specific patterns. Everything is individualistic and unique. Each moment is unique and each method is unique. One’s food could be another’s poison. So, do not judge experiences, but value them. Everything has relevance in some way, to some one.
Those who have ‘eyes’ will ‘see’. Others will not, because they have chosen ‘blindness.’ In the real world, there is nothing to prove, if one exists beyond ego. There is no one higher or lower. There is no one better or lesser. All are equal. Just like in earthly life, spiritual life depends on the baggage that we carry. Some carry heavy karmas, while some have lesser belongings. Those who have lesser baggage, travel faster. Baggage becomes more heavy when emotions rule life. It is lighter when spirit rules life. It is as simple as that. Simplicity is Godliness. Complications are terrestrial. The more complicated we are, the more terrestrial we are. And, all complications are our own unconscious creations. God has nothing to do with it.
Spirituality is the path of infinity and dissolution. The more we travel, the more we realize that there is much more to go. Then again, our expectations end at some point and gratitude replaces all the emotions. Just gratitude. Simple Gratitude. Nothing else remains. Then our expression becomes pure Unconditional Love. Our journey becomes smooth and effortless. We do not feel the distance anymore. In fact, the distance evaporates and disappears. The destination itself disappears. The journey culminates in perfect unity. So, as we travel further and further, all our mental images and preconceived notions start to dissolve and we start accepting things as they happen. This is perfect equanimity, unconditional surrender to the Lord Almighty. This is the path of our soul. This is the path of Shiva.
Over life times, we have created a certain character, that we are expressing in this life. This can be called our basic constitution as well. When non-resistance happens in our inner space, when all internal frictions disappear, our basic constitution will start to melt. This is the beginning of nullification. This is the beginning of merger with the supreme, or dissolution. We go through various levels or states of samadhi, and finally, we dissolve completely into a stage where we know that we do not exist as separate from anything. Everything is us. We are everything. There are no independent identities or identifications. Deep bliss. Nothing else but bliss. The bliss of being Shiva. Shivoham.
The destiny that brought a tough, muscular, cowboy-like personality such as Richard into the path of Babaji, is his past life karma. The severe sadhana that he accomplished in his past life brought him to the great Master, after an initial period of delusion, even though he fell ignorant of his roots in this life. Babaji never lost grip of any soul that is connected to Him. He never lost track. He kept everyone together. It is the same kind of destiny that brought him and Babaji boy into my life too. The golden thread that connected all of us – is Babaji. I am sure, I will come across many more of my relatives, from the family of Babaji, during my further journey. Some will recognize our relationship, some will not, yet the journey will continue, until the river merges with the ocean.
The Guru of Babaji
Siddha Bhoganathar is considered to be the Guru of Babaji. His Samadhi is in Palani, Tamil Nadu. He is immortal, just like His famous disciple. Bhoganathar and His disciples are still supposed to be meditating inside the caves of the hills of Palani. It is also considered that Bhoganathar created the idol of Lord Muruga, the presiding deity of Palani Hill. The idol is made out of nine types of herbs or 9 poisons (Nava Paashaan), which individually have the capacity to kill, but if combined in a particular proportion, becomes the medicine for any type of disease. This is called Siddha Oushadh (Siddha Medicine). It is also said that Siddha Bhoganathar created the idol of Muruga in the form of the youthful Babaji, His favorite disciple.
I felt a deep urge to visit the shrine of Bhoganathar. When I reached Palani and climbed up the hill, it was already evening. Lots of people running all over the temple premises and shouting for no apparent reason, did not really suit my silence-oriented mind. I decided to pay my respects to the Great Master Bhoganathar at His samadhi and get out of the place. When I reached there, that place was also crowded. The queue was long. Everyone seemed to be in a hurry to go to Bhoganathar’s shrine. I went inside the temple, but could not sit and meditate there because of the crowd. So, I came out and found a relatively quieter place, on the side of Bhogar Samadhi. I sat there and meditated. It was almost 8pm.
I paid my respects to the great Siddha. I also thanked Him for gracing the earth and blessing all of us. Suddenly, a hot stone fell on my thigh from nowhere. It hurt a bit. It was hot, as if taken out from an oven! I looked around to see if someone had thrown it at me. There was no one. From my thigh, it fell on the floor. I waited for some time for it to cool down, and then picked it up. The stone resembled a head of an elephant – Lord Ganesha!!! I was stunned and overwhelmed by the Grace of the Maha Siddha. I considered this as a tangible blessings from the Guru of Babaji. I was happy and satisfied. I put the stone in my pocket, brought it back to my parent’s home and kept it in their shrine. I started my journey down the hill to my hotel room. Before that, I had the darsan of Lord Muruga, the presiding deity of the temple and had a sip of the milk with which they bathe the idol. That milk is supposed to have the qualities of the siddha medicine. Siddha Bhoganathar is also considered to be Lao Tzu of China. One of the disciples of Bhoganathar is said to be Chinese. His name is Pulippani. Bhoganathar also created the Kaya Kalpa treatment which brings back youth and vitality in the old. There are many stories attached to Bhoganathar, the immortal Yogi. Let us prostrate at His Lotus feet….
In 2009, I was preparing to return to Muscat, after attending a marriage in India. I decided to drop in and see Richard at his place. His place was on my way to the airport. I was not sure if he was there, as we had not communicated since long. The train arrived just before sun rise and I landed up in town, early in the morning, checked into a hotel room, made myself fresh, had breakfast and then I called Richard. Usually, it is not very easy to get him on phone. When I called, he picked it up immediately and said: “I was expecting you. Was not sure if you will be coming here today or tomorrow.” I asked “When can I meet you?” He said “Right Now.” That’s it. I found his house in no time and once again, it was like old times. It was a great feeling to be with this son of Babaji. Both of us were overjoyed at meeting each other again. As soon as I sat down in his living room, within five minutes,the door bell rang and in came a friend of Richard called Alfred.
I have never physically met Alfred before. We do not know each other at all. We never heard of each other too. He does not know that I exist at all. Still, three days before we met, he had a dream in which he distinctly saw me standing in a white robe, surrounded by many people. It was some kind of an initiation ceremony. Alfred was also sitting there. In the dream, I turned to him and said, ” I am coming to meet you. Do not worry.I will give you what you need.” Then the dream ended. Even though he explained this dream to Richard, they could not figure out the message in the dream. Since Alfred had not seen me before, the dream remained a mystery until he met me. The very next night, (the night previous to his meeting me) he saw another dream in which Sathya Sai Baba came and told him – as clearly as it would go, “I am sending Mohan to you. He will give you what you need.” This was again a mystery. He had no met anyone with the name Mohan as yet. And he also did not connect this dream with the one from the previous night. When he saw me in Richard’s house, it all suddenly clicked. He stood there in a shock, looking at me for a few seconds and then, without any formalities, said: ” GIVE ME.” I said: “Sit down. Let me prepare you to receive it.” He sat down, and Richard sat on the other side. And we started talking. As soon as I saw Alfred, I received an inner command to initiate him into Shaktipat. It became clear to me why I came to this town and why he appeared in front of me. The purpose was truly divine and this was completely and perfectly orchestrated by the Masters.
Alfred is a very sensitive man. He keeps away from everyone. He is very sensitive to energy and can see spirits and Masters effortlessly. He is also well connected to Babaji and he was brought to India by Babaji. Babaji and Sai Baba commune with him almost everyday. His belongs to the central part of America. He was supposed to go to Thailand the day he met me, as his Indian Visa was expiring and, due to some mis-understanding with his travel agent, his ticket got cancelled and was re-secheduled to fly the next day. The real purpose for this confusion was indeed our meeting.
Alfred’s story is also stranger than fiction. He was communing with Babaji and soon developed interest in Sathya Sai Baba. He felt a strong urge to meet Baba. He worked hard and amassed sufficient money to come to India and meet Baba. He worked for about two years to make himself free for this travel. Thus, he arrived at Sai Baba’s ashram. He was sitting in the crowd, eagerly awaiting Baba’s arrival. When he saw Baba, he was overwhelmed. It was indeed a Great Dream Coming True. Suddenly, in front of him, Baba materialised Sacred ash (Vibhoothi) from his hand and Alfred clearly saw Baba taking Vibhoothi out of a capsule hidden in a sleeve. He was heart broken. “Baba, a magician?! Did I come all the way to India spending all the money to see a magician?!” – his mind started racing. He was completely shattered. He rushed back to his hotel room, sat on a chair and cried his heart out. He felt betrayed and completely devastated. He was not sure how much time he cried. Meanwhile, he took a firm decision to pack and leave Puttaparthy the next day. Suddenly, he experienced the smell of Baba’s Vibhoothi and he lifted his head up to look. He was shocked to see Baba physically standing in the room, right in front of him!!! Baba gave him a hard slap on his cheek and said: “You Idiot, you think I am a magician? Do you think I brought you here to show you some magic? I constantly shake trees of faith to drop the dead wood and tamas. I wanted to disillusion some people who came to test me. They were sitting in front of you. They had no faith. They are not eligible to receive my grace or energy. That is why I created that scene. They will never come back. But you….. I brought you here. You stay” Baba patted his shoulder and disappeared. It took some time for him to recover from this great, unbelievable experience. But, he stayed. That night onwards, he meets Baba either astrally or physically, almost everyday. He started communing with Baba, constantly otherwise too.
Alfred steadily developed many powers. He could even read the minds of animals. He became so sensitive that he avoided all kinds of unnecessary interactions with people or any kind of get-togethers. He became more and more of an introvert. Richard was his closest ally. On this day, he had come to see Richard at his place and that is where we met. So, in his dream, Baba had told him that he is sending me to him. But, he was not aware that he will meet me at Richard’s place.
We were sitting across from each other, when Alfred, at one point, asked: “Are you practicing Kriya Yoga?”
I said “No, I am practicing nothing in particular.” When asked why he asked this question, he said: “I could see almost all the Kriya Yoga Masters with you, working through you.” Richard intervened and said: “I saw it too. This links all of us. The same Masters, the same tradition. We are one family.” It was interesting how two Americans and I were discussing the intangible and subtle during this most unexpected meeting, at a strange location. Richard never allows anyone to enter his house unless he is convinced about the visitor’s energy. Alfred is very sensitive with energies as well.
A few minutes later, Alfred exclaimed: “Mohanji, something is happening in my body. I can feel my chakras expanding and contracting. I can feel the energy shifts. Bubbles are bursting within!” I said: “Please sit quiet and take it easy. I am working on you.” After one hour, I initiated him into Shaktipat. And while I was doing that, Richard, who was watching, went into a trance state. After the initiation, all of us meditated for some time. Then, they shared their experiences. Richard said: “Mohanji, I saw all the Kriya Yoga Masters, Babaji, Jesus, Sai Baba, Lord Dattatreya and many other Masters coming and going through you when you were initiating Alfred. The power and energy was so high that I was immediately shifted into another plane.” Alfred saw the same. He said: “Mohanji, I feel that it will not be easy to reach you sooner or later. I feel that Masters are preparing you for something much higher. More and more people will come to know about you.” Then, both of them told me a few things about my path and the future (actually, they only reiterated what Babaji had already told me in our earlier communions. This was like a re-confirmation for me, as both of them speak to Babaji as well as Sai Baba, regularly). Then I told Richard: “After my long communion with Babaji in Dubai, He has never come to me. Why is that?” Richard said: “Mohanji, do you know why Babaji is not so visible these days? He is observing silence. He does that, whenever he works on other planets or galaxies. He can operate at many places at the same time. He is truly omnipresent. But yes, He will come to you many times more. Babaji always keeps His promise. He has told you that He will reach you at the appropriate time. He will. Be patient. Just give it another year. That is the time for your maturing to the materials that He has delivered to you already. You need time to digest everything and live it, don’t you?” Even though he mentioned the last sentence as a joke, I understood the deeper meaning. True Masters never cram their disciples into indigestion. They allow time for the disciples to grasp, digest and grow. We discussed many more things about Babaji, Baba and the tradition, and we parted after about four hours.
Babaji and a galaxy of Masters work relentlessly in order to bring up beings of lower consciousness. But, just like our soul never imposes its presence on us, they never impose anything on anyone. Once we prepare ourselves and become eligible, they appear and deliver unconditionally. Ego is the biggest barrier that we must cross. I never met or communicated with Alfred ever again, till date. And I have not communicated much with Richard too, after this meeting a few months ago. We meet astrally though.
The Shiva Experience
This is a slight deviation from my experience with Babaji. But, since I promised you that I will narrate my Shiva experience, with your permission, let me take the detour.
It was a day after my Birthday in 2007 – February 23rd. I was with my parents and decided to celebrate my birthday at a nearby ashram. I usually celebrate my birthday by feeding the poor children. However, that day, since morning, I was feeling dizzy. My head was spinning. I was feeling very uncomfortable and also was having a bit of nausea. I reached the ashram by evening. When I reached there, I was almost helpless as even my eye sight was blurred. I could not see people clearly. But, I behaved as natural as I could, to avoid unnecessary questions and explanations. That morning, I had a deep urge to buy the book “Shiva Sutras”, without any particular reason. By 8pm, I spoke to the Swami of that ashram and told him that I am very much uncomfortable, without any apparent reason. He said: “Fine. Let’s take a walk and get some fresh air.”
He took me out and we walked to another house in the ashram complex, which is about 500 yards away. All I could remember was reaching that place, entering the hall and sitting down on a chair near a table.
Sacred Ash started coming out through the top of my head and then slowly falling down my body (Sacred Ash sprouting out of Sahasraara is a sign of burnt karmas. When the last remnants of karmas are getting exhausted, like a volcano, with high intensity, they are burnt and expelled through the Sahasraara. This is typical of Dattatreya Tradition). My body was transparent and huge bright light was glowing from within. My eye lids became golden. The light penetrated my clothes and was radiating to the outside world. I was expanded beyond description. Everything was within me. Mohan did not exist.
Viboothi kept flowing… There was no time or space. There were no gunas (attributes) such as Sattwa, Rajas or Tamas, there were no identities. Everything got erased in a split second. The need to return or come back was also not there… I do not know how much time I existed in that state. All I heard after some time was the voice of Swami shouting to other ashramites: ” Shiva is here!Come fast….Bring the camera.” I slowly started regaining my body awareness, but that took some time. I became aware that many people are around me. I became aware of the flash bulbs. Then, at one point, I opened my eyes.
I saw a lot of people in front of me. The first photo caught a slight glimpse of the brightness that was coming out from inside my body (Swami said that the brightness was so strong that initially he couldn’t allow anyone to enter as they (their nerve endings especially) would not be able to withstand this level of energy). The later photos just caught my physical frame with the Vibhooti, and the state after the experience. As it is said, “images can speak much more than words.” So, do enjoy the photos.
That experience tilted my consciousness. My awareness level changed. As of then, I started shifting to different awareness levels effortlessly.
When a seeker becomes the sought, his limited entity dissolves into that of unlimited nature. He becomes all pervading, completely lucid and transparent, vibrant, shining, subtly dynamic and exists in complete awareness. The momentary sourcing of data from the higher realms becomes effortless and continuous.
This is what I wrote soon after the Shiva experience:
When we touch the realms of Shiva, the Supreme, everything dissolves. Everything merges into one. It’s only a vast, expanded brightness, absolutely peaceful and all-knowing. All the planets, various suns, stars and various spheres of existence, become simply parts of the vast existence of Shiva, the Supreme. It is all contained within the infinite brightness which has supreme awareness. That was my experience on Feb 24th, 2007. That state can be called the state of the Father, or Allah, or Parabramha, it’s all the same. All one needs is to understand that effect.
When the limited entity called Mohan became Shiva, at first, there was only the bliss, indescribable bliss that encompassed me. The bliss of infiniteness. The bliss of liberation. The bliss of bodylessness. Existing in that expanded state, I became one with all the beings of the Universe. Limited awareness of Mohan merged with the entire cosmos and became one with both, the limited and unlimited existence. In that expanded state, one can only expresses Love, our very nature. I became every being, and every being became me.
Human intellect cannot comprehend the state of Shiva. Humans can experience that state only when they cease to become humans. They need to get out of their body, mind, intellect, ego and every other aspect and become empty and pure. Shiva’s state is that of extreme purity. Human intellect has limitation and its data bank, the sub conscious, is usually filled with stored memories and their attached emotions, and this is what it can refer from. State of Shiva can never be stored and extracted this way. It can only be experienced and that too, when we can effectively transcend our “humanness.”
Whenever intellect tries to comprehend, humans miss the Shiva aspect. Humans cannot achieve the state of Shiva by “doing.” Be it of physical or intellectual nature, “doing” amounts to action and movement. Action is expression of duality. Duality is dilution of the true state of Shiva which is all-encompassing and exists as non-duality. State of Shiva is truly that of Oneness. They can achieve the Shiva state only through “beingness”, being in the state of Shiva.
In that state of complete bliss and love, the transformed entity will choose to lead many more souls to His stature – that of the Supreme. This is a pure act formed out of love and compassion. By doing this, he is guiding himself; because everything is part of himself. It is as if some part of the body gets dirty, we wash and clean it. Just the same, when some souls search in darkness, liberated souls, with full understanding and awareness that those souls in darkness are essentially a part of themselves, lead them to light. By doing this, they are becoming more complete….
Birth of the Bless the World Meditations
Three months after the Shiva experience, at about 4Am, I was woken up and immediately sensed very high energy, within me and around me. The Power of Purity meditation was given to me by Baba (I consider all Masters as BABA, because, there is no importance to name or identities in the other realms. All work in unison, under the guidance of the Supreme. This is my experience). So, when I was woken up and asked to write the meditation, I was not aware of what I am supposed to do with it. I had no idea what I was going to write. I was not even aware of the content.
As it was being delivered, it took only about 10 minutes for me to type the meditation using my laptop. It was like Baba was making my fingers move. Everything was crystal clear. When I realized that it was a full-fledged meditation, I asked Baba: ” What am I supposed to do with it? Am I supposed to meditate?” He said: “No. You must teach.” Immediately the introvert in me objected: “No Baba, I am not cut out for such a thing. You know that I am an introvert. I cannot go around and tell people – Hey, come here, I will teach you a meditation. Moreover, I am not a Guru material. I am an ordinary man, with all the strengths and weaknesses of normal human beings.” Immediately the answer came: “That’s not your problem. We will send people to you. Understand that those who come to you are sent by us. Others will not reach you. Nor will they understand you. Your strength is your subtlety. You are empowered. You will represent our tradition.” Again, my logical mind objected: “I need people to assist me in this, especially if the mission that you are entrusting me is so big.” The answer was: ” That is not your problem either. We will make things happen at the appropriate time. Just be.” I realized that my holidays are over and I am about to embark on a much larger mission. 🙂 The journey has begun!!!
I recorded the meditation in a studio quite effortlessly because, at that time, I was doing the radio show called Mohan’s World, which was reasonably popular amongst the spiritual circles. Just as Baba said, our meditation took off in Dubai. It started spreading wider and wider to the stage that we have reached now. What have I done to achieve this? Nothing. This is Divine play. All my question-answers and blogs are also similar. I never read or prepare. Appropriate answers happen at the appropriate time. Our path is so pure and simple. No expectations, no conditions. Only two pillars. Purity and Faith.We operate on the ground of unconditional love, beyond all man-made barriers such as caste, creed, countries, communities, cultures and colors.
Even though I received the meditation in May 2007, I did not conduct any classes nor did I attempt to record it till September.
Biba saw the entire text, right after I received it telepathically, and told me: “It is amazing. You should spread it.” A crystal clear answer appeared in my awareness: “I will do it free of cost, as a service to society. This would be the next dimension of what I am doing through Ammucare Charity Foundation. Through Ammucare, we are physically helping the poor and helpless of the society. Through Bless The World Meditations, we shall work on unburdening the helpless karmic entities called Human Beings. Unburdening/cleansing of the conditionings that one carries forward through lifetimes, definitely will take time. If change from the birth&death cycle is a necessity, then commitment and patience is a must. Faith is a must because the cleansing that happened may not be tangible. Yet, it will be effective for sure.”
In October 2007, Biba took the initiative and organised the first ever meditation class in Dubai that I myself conducted. Then, every week, the classes happened. People experienced heavy cleansing. Some experienced communions with the Masters. Some got answers to their questions without even asking them. Some had certain miraculous experiences. Thus, all have their own experience and are getting results. As always, some are consistent and committed. Some just come to see. Some to test. Some to taste. Some appreciate. Some criticize. Some ridicule. Some praise. This is nothing unusual. This is the way the world operates. We conduct the classes free of cost and voluntary donations are used for expense of the premises and charity activities. So many people, love incarnates, came together and made this happen. They are carrying it forward. Slowly, BTW meditations spread to other countries, as people shared their impressions and experiences with others. We did no campaigning or marketing. Baba’s words always ring in my ears: “Understand that those who come to you, are sent by us.”
When Need Happens, Form Happens. Form has no Value, Need has…that created the form.
A True Experience: In one of our classes at Dubai, while I was answering questions, suddenly everyone saw the room getting filled with beautiful , purple energy – allfell quiet instantly. We sat there for more than an hour, in absolute silence. No phones rang and none bothered us from outside either. When we came back to our senses, everyone said, almost like a chorus “Oh God. I saw Babaji!!!It was Babaji!!!” This was real. There is a BIG difference between my talking and their experiencing. Experience cannot be denied. It is life changing. We have had many such experiences, with different Masters, in most of our classes.
Visions and communions are of two kinds. One is mind’s projection. We feel, “I saw Rama.” “I saw Krishna, or Jesus or Buddha.” “They told me this, they told me that,” etc. These are just mind’s cravings for recognition as the deep wish for divine communion gets projected back to you as a seeming reality. This will not have any lasting effect on you. You will not have any real changes in your constitution. The test is real life itself. If there is a fundamental constitutional change, visible in real life, that means that the communions were real. Otherwise, just like a dream, it is something that comes and goes. You will remain the same. You will shake and shatter only when you have to face the real life. Real communions are life-changing. They always leave you in a different dimension, at least one step higher than before. There will be a heavy shift within. Your awareness level would have changed.
Such communions are not easy to experience. They need eligibility. Eligibility happens with Purity, Patience and Egoless-ness. A shift does not take any time. A sinner can become a saint over-night. Eligibility takes time, because it is related to unburdening of karmas. People will never stay stable in one constitution for ever. Everyone evolves. Some are fast, while some are slow in evolving, which purely depends on their karmic baggage. If karmic baggage is less, spiritual evolution will be quite fast.
Those who have had divine communions, or those who have developed capacity to communicate constantly with higher entities, will display that divinity in real life too. Just like you unconsciously acquire the qualities of your friends, you acquire the qualities of your Gurus too. One Swami living in Himalayas once told me: “You can see a distinct trait in all the people who have communed with Babaji. That trait is a compelling need for introversion, to go within, to avoid articulation, embracing silence.” I saw this clearly in Babaji Boy, Richard and Alfred. I also saw this intensifying in me. I have to force myself to go and talk to people or take classes. It is only the Dharma (duty) that propels me to do so for some time more….
The Shaktipat Initiation
Shaktipat is one of the key factors of our meditation. Shaktipat is part of our grand tradition. But, unless one is properly initiated, Shaktipat will not have any effect. The giver cannot give anything and the receiver will not be benefited. Our guided meditations, per se, are only preparations. In the classes, it is Shaktipat that makes the difference. It works on people’s ‘baggage’ and cleanses it systematically, week by week, and the results are clear in people. The same meditation gives different effect at each time. There is no physical variety. But, there is variety in the effect of the meditation, each time.
Faith and consistency. That is our path. Unburdening is a gradual process because we are unburdening from the samskaaras of many life times. Shaktipat is life changing. Shaktipat is precious and it is serious. Those whom I initiated to give Shaktipat were brought to me by Baba. Initiating people is not my discretion. I will be instructed at the right time, whom to initiate, just like in Alfred’s case. I do not choose whom to initiate. I follow orders. Those who are initiated have experienced tremendous shifts in their constitution and awareness levels. They are able to deliver it to others too. When they perform Shaktipat, their consciousness merges with mine. Shaktipat is sacred. The power will be lost completely, if one’s operating levels change to being ego based.
Shaktipat is a boon. It has to happen. It is a serious responsibility. Purity and Faith should be maintained at all times for effective deliverance of Shaktipat. Also, the presence of various Masters in our sessions is another tangible proof. People see them or feel them and they experience shifts in their constitution, their operating levels. This is not imagination. This is real. Still, conscious mind that cannot comprehend matters beyond the senses, will tend to deny it and trash it as imagination. It is anti- spiritual to deny our experiences, to prefer the words of others to your own experience. Your own experience is the most important thing for you. That’s your personal lesson. You have to start walking from where you stand. Your own experience is where you stand. Others’ words have no value, especially if the other is operating from the regular intellectual or emotional plane.
Predictions and Guidance
As always, during every trip to Himalayas, I meet an old saint (name has to be withheld – apologies) who has a great value in my life. He has not taught me anything. But, his words have always been of value. He is not a diviner.He is neither an astrologer nor a preacher. He never predicts future. Yet,the first time I met him, he said: “Do something for the children of mother earth. You will have eternal peace.”
Those words worked in my mind and it later became Ammucare, even though I had no plans to start any charity organisation at that time. It was like a command or prophecy. The second time I met him, he said: “I have a deep regret. I could not meet your daughter Ammu. She was an “amsha” (a part, or consciousness) of Lord Krishna!!!” This was a revelation for me. Ammu passed away on Krishna’s Birthday (Janmashtami). Also, on the night before she passed away, she told my mother: “I am playing with Krishna. Grandma, can you see Krishna?” My mom said: “We are humans. We cannot see God so easily.” And Ammu said: “You cannot see because your bhakti is not strong enough. If you pray sincerely, you can see Him.” These memories came to my mind when this saint told me about his unfulfilled wish. That gave me a better understanding about Ammu. I felt deeply honored that she came and took birth in our family as my child.
The third important thing that this saint told me was just a year ago. He said: “In the days to come, you will explicitly express Shiva. Fire will come through your eyes. You will elevate many people just through your eyes. You will change many lives through Shaktipat. You cannot hide for long.” I joked: “Swamiji, let me hide as long as I can. This introversion is what suits me.” He laughed and said: “Wait and watch what is going to happen.” All what he said has happened. He is one of my biggest well wishers, and lives in relative isolation in the Himalayas. As he said, Bless The World Meditations are getting translated into several languages – people feel the prompting to join in, to serve, to spread Love.
Meanwhile, another meditation called 360 degrees was given to me. More are on the way. Each has the ability to change lives. The basic reason is grace. Grace cannot be created. It has to happen.
All those whom I have initiated into Shaktipat, are delivering it with the same intensity that I would have, if I were physically present. Just like the monkey’s child clings on to its mother and automatically reaches the highest branch, in our path, the disciple reaches the highest in spirituality, just by holding on to the Guru Tattwa – the principle called Guru.
I still maintain my privacy and freedom. I still work for my living. I make sure that my existence is unpretentious. Nobody canvasses anybody for the BTW sessions. It is completely free. All voluntary contributions are used for charity after paying the expenses of the premises. Everything is recorded and audited. All those who attend are encouraged to write their experiences in their own spiritual diary, because, in the world of hard selling, beautiful talkers will brain wash them to nullify their own experience, make them believe that it was just imagination. I never take head counts. I just say: “It is available free. Using it is your discretion.” This lifestyle helps me to maintain my objectivity and selflessness. It helps me to stay liberated, without expectations. An unconditional existence is truly liberating!!!
Thus, my beloveds, the path ahead is the path of Gold for our generation. Energy changes in the universe are being experienced by us, right now, right here. Shift is taking place. Shift in consciousness is obvious. There is nothing to do. Just be in the present. Just be with every thought, word and action. Be fully conscious. Just express unconditional love always. Live in absolute faith and surrender. Live in Bliss.