In the safe hands of an Avadhoota

Whatever I write below, has been personally read and approved by Avadhoota Nadananda.

Flight was late. I reached Delhi from London on 25th of July. Heavy traffic. It took literally ages to reach Gurgaon. I had to attend a short program before leaving for the airport again. I quickly brushed and washed up. Since there was no time for any food, I “gobbled” a special South Indian coffee made by Phaneedhar’s mother and went for the program. I quickly completed the program and rushed to the airport to catch the flight to Bangalore. This was an unannounced trip. I and a companion. Only two of us. We are going to see Avadhoota Nadananda. He had beckoned me to come and meet him as soon as I come back to India. He was resting after his most important trip to Mookambika, Kollur; the place that made and moulded Avadhoota Nadananda.

Mohanji and Nadananda unconditional love

It started raining. Bangalore choked. Traffic blocked. It took us literally 5 hours to reach his abode. The previous morning, his leg slipped while getting out of his car resulting in a slipped disc. Hence, we kept coaxing him over the phone to have his meal and take rest. But he wouldn’t listen. He wanted to wait. The love of a Guru, mother, father, friend, companion, protector – all in one. The divine fragrance of true love! The master was waiting! The master always waits patiently!

A kind of guilt for making him wait dawned in me. As soon as it came, it disappeared. “What have I got to do with it? Neither me nor Guruji are responsible for the rain and traffic blocks. We are just witnesses of the divine play. Just witnesses!”

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Finally, we arrived at the doorstep of the abode of Avadhoota Nadananda. There was not even a drop of time to waste. I was more concerned of Guruji refraining from food because of the delay the rain caused us. I went upstairs, guided by Sri. Mohan Gaaru. As soon as Avadhoota Nadananda saw me, deep and genuine happiness dawned on his face. I prostrated at his feet. I held his feet in eternal reverence. His feet are the feet of the Divine Mother and the eternal Guru Mandala. He said “Get up, Mohanji”. I got up and he got up too, even though his face was grimacing in excruciating pain due to the slipped disc. He repeated with overwhelming happiness, “Mohanji has come back to me.” He held my hands, hugged me, and kept repeating, “You have come back to me! Welcome back. I am going to give you everything that I have. If I did not do that, all that I have would have gone wasted. You are the most eligible one to receive from me.” Every word he spoke hit me deep in my heart. I felt that he was already changing my software to receive the absolute in its complete grandeur. This was also in reply to an earlier mail from me to him, seeking his opinion on my intention to withdraw from public life for a while and court silence and practice. He had not replied. And these words that he spoke made me understand that the question that I asked was totally invalid and the Guru Mandala has already decided my future. All I have to do is to just flow. I have nothing to claim as my own including the things that we see and experience such as the body, mind and intellect. I am an empty bottle. He said “All the masters who you met have gone one by one. Soon I will go too. But I will not go before I give you everything. I will keep all my promises and fulfill the expectations of the Guru Mandala.” I asked him “Guruji, why am I meeting these masters including you, at their last stage of walk on earth?” He replied “Nobody has left you. Nor will I leave you. They are meeting you, to take their work forward, which you are performing selflessly. You are guiding people the way we all want. All those whom you met, left with peace and satisfaction that the work that they had started will continue through you and you will never have a personal agenda. Purity and innocence are the strengths. The world may not understand this. We do. The Guru Mandala does. And we are with you, behind you and will never abandon you or let you suffer.” He added, “You are meeting them during their last stages because you are here to merge and continue traditions. And the masters never owned anything anyway.” This gave me clarity. The faces of Vittal Babaji, Baba Ganeshananda Giri, and Vasudevan Swami, flashed through my mind. Now, here was Avadhoota Nadananda explaining the tapestry of my existence. Everything makes sense in a way, but when I imagine the weight of the responsibility, I wondered, can this perishable flesh see it through? If yes, how long? Guruji added “The sign of a true disciple is the lack of WHY in their mind. Never ask WHY or HOW. You shall be given everything and more you need for carrying out the journey to a wonderful completion. I shall keep my promises. I shall be with you every step, even if I do not have a body. The Guru mandala will be with you. Divine Mother will be with you. Our supreme guru Lord Dattatreya will be with you.” Thundering assurances! I never asked WHY ever. I only accepted with a bowed head the will of the supreme always.

Mohanji and Avadhoota Nadananda

Mohanji

 

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Suddenly he asked me how my journey was and if I was tired after my overnight travel from London, this trip, without any rest, the tedium of road trip, so on and so forth. I was overwhelmed by the sight and touch of Guruji, I had no pain, fatigue or jet lag. There was no time for jet lag. I have come home. He walked with us to the door, sat us down and he himself started feeding us. His love was overflowing. It was palpable and every bit was a shower of blessing. A torrential rain of blessings was flowing down on me and my companion right from the palpable portals of the Guru Mandala through the hands of Avadhoota Nadananda.

 

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Mohanji serving Bhiksha to Nadanandaji

Mohanji serving Bhiksha 2

After the food, we briefly talked about the proposed ceremony to be held on October 10th. He asked me to invite people close to me because this would be one of the most auspicious functions for me and also the last function that he intended to perform in this lifetime. He talked with firmness, determination and extreme conviction. He said “This title is not my decision. This title is not your expectation either. This has been ordered by the order of Guru Mandala. I am delivering it to you on the auspicious day of Vijaya Dashami. This is not an ordinary day, ordinary title or ordinary function. You will never be the same again. I will step down. You will climb up.” I felt a bit sad “Guruji, I understand, appreciate and honor the decision of Guru Mandala. I am not even asking if I am eligible because I have learned to accept what comes my way with utmost humility and surrender. But, why should you step down? And where am I climbing to?”

Guruji explained, again in a very serious and no-nonsense tone – soaked with love. “I have been crying to find someone eligible to hand over. I have been waiting for the permission to withdraw from public life. Guru Mandala told me “You can get off the saddle”. I asked again, “What next?” They just said “You are free to step down now.” They relieved me from all my responsibilities. I have to step down. Since a few decades, I have been walking this tedious path literally with blood in my mouth and 5th stage cancer which I had taken over from a woman who was dying. Now I am 76. This body is tired. I cannot move on like this anymore. I need to withdraw from public life, go back to myself and merge with the supreme consciousness. I shall be in isolation.

It was late at night. We decided to sleep. I literally had a long day. After a weekend retreat in London, I had hopped into the first possible flight to Delhi via Dubai and, after a function at Gurgaon, had come off to Bangalore. I had no sleep whatsoever. But, I was not tired either. Anyways, we decided to call it a day.

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Dawn of 26th July. After I brushed washed and prayed, I walked to Guruji’s room. Guruji had decided to make a special dish for me. Sister Sujata told me that Guruji has been preparing for my arrival since days and was showing so much excitement, as would a mother or father would show when their son comes home after a long absence. Guruji himself went out and bought vegetables to cook dishes for me and insisted on serving me. Affection without barriers! Totally sincere and unconditional, overflowing love of a true master. He said “I am not your guru.” I was perplexed. I did not understand what he meant. “I sign off your mails as “brotherly”. Why? I do not want to have any barrier between us, not even that of a guru and disciple. I am like your elder brother. I come to you. You need not come to me. You need not take any effort anymore. You have already come to me, come back to me. Now it is my turn. I come towards you running, just like my guru came running to me and took over my life and destiny. Just be available. Just be there.” So many things are happening already inside. I decided to just surrender and keep quiet. He asked “You have some barrier with me, haven’t you?” I said “No Guruji. I have respect. Only respect for you.” He said “Love. Love is enough. I feel you are my younger brother, even though you call me as Guruji. Let us not have any barrier”.

“Do you know who came and accepted the dakshina that I had handed over to you at Shirdi?” I said “I understand Guruji, he comes from Guru Mandala. He is my gateway to the ultimate reality.” Guruji said “He is the one who took me there. He is the one who guided me. He is eternal.” (I am not permitted to reveal the name here even though Guruji said the name in front of all those who were listening. If Guruji permits, I shall mention the name at a future date.”)

He asked “Are you not going to write a blog?” I said “No Guruji. Let me keep this sacred meeting and discussions  away from the eyes of skeptical minds. There have been some complaints about the last blog that, what I wrote is not true.” Guruji said “I approved your blog. In that case, we are collaborating with each other to mislead the people? HA HA HA.” He laughed aloud and continued. “Whenever truth is conveyed, the insecure and guilty people will say that we are scaring them. This is good. Truth must be told. You need not worry. The Guru Mandala is talking through you. Every word, every matter we convey. You have my approval. Go on, write it.” Even though it was on his instruction that I started writing, I developed some doubts again. “How much can I disclose?” He said “As much as the world needs to know. There is nothing to hide. Those who manipulate the minds of people will call the absolute truth as untruth and will sell their own version of partial truth. Let us not care about it.”

I never went after powers or titles. I never tried to display anything out of natural. What comes to us is meant for us. Never ask why and why not. Both are absurd.

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He said “The function of 10th is very important. It will be life changing for you and for me. Your family members should join us.” He personally invited my family members on phone one by one. He was coughing and was visibly looking weak and tired. But he was as enthusiastic as a teenager. He said “I do not touch money. I do not use money. When people give money, I use it for serving the needy. I do not have a bank account. But, you are different. You have a family and you have their responsibility. You must live like a regular householder. You have to lead a different lifestyle than me. Do not imitate a master. Accept his teachings wholeheartedly.” He told a story “One master was walking with 4 disciples. They became thirsty. There was no water. Suddenly they saw an alcohol shop. The master went in and drank four bottles of palm liquor and walked out. Seeing this, the disciples also did the same. Nothing happened to the master. The disciples became drunk. They walked further. They felt hungry. A few yards ahead, they saw a metal melting unit. The red hot melted metal was oozing out of the opening. The master took it in his hands and swallowed it. Nothing happened to him. The disciples were unable to do that. The moral is, the master could possibly perform the unbelievable. Looking at that, the disciple should not attempt such feats. They should become masters before they attempt such things. Sister Sujata also mentioned that even though Guruji is going for treatment, in X ray and Scans, no ailments are visible while he is suffering from 5th stage cancer. This is intriguing the doctors. Guruji said “when our 7 chakras are activated and we operate in super conscious realms, body is equal to sookshma (subtle). When cosmic energy is fully activated in our system, any kind of artificial energies such as medicines or machines will never work or get nullified. Medical science will not understand that.”

Guruji explained the things to do about the service that Manav Seva Samiti and Ammucare are doing together at various locations. He reiterated on two major things – BEING PRACTICAL and BEING RELEVANT.( Activities relevant to each location, people and their needs) He mentioned that charity should not be for name-sake. We should never have superiority complex. We should deliver what is relevant. We should not delay. We should perform before time because our promises affect somebody positively or negatively. When promises are not kept, it affects relationships. And we should focus more on empowering than feeding so much to create dependency. We should hold their hands as long as needed and allow them to be free. Humility is the right attitude of a karma yogi. He urged all to perform more activities and never allow the system to slow down because of individual ennui. He asked me to keep an eye when he goes on silence and help as much as I can. He was happy with the current team leaders and members. He said activity should always be relevant to the location and situation. There is no point in providing soap where there is no water. Give water first – then soap.

He sounded mentally prepared to withdraw and also told that his original plan of the title ceremony in December had to be brought to October because of his deteriorating health conditions. And he reiterated that it is a big occasion. He said “I do not speak anything. It is Guru Mandala speaking through me. Those who connect to this body called Nadananda will suffer with delusion. Those who connect to the universe beneath the form will reach the highest. Those who need nothing will get everything. Those who need everything can never be satisfied by anybody”. “Everything is in an atom. The potential for the whole universe is stored in an atom. And atom is all that we are.”

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The day vanished as a carnival. Old friend Lakshmi and Natesh Mahadevan spiced up the day with their presence. It is difficult to write here everything that Guruji said to me. He also mentioned about a few rituals during the ceremony as well as transfer of spiritual energy. Anyways, he would remember more than me because he knows better.

A long light day, evaporated into bliss supreme.

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With only love and gratitude, I go to bed.

Mohanji

Straight Talk

Mohanji – Straight Talk

Q: I cannot meditate. What should I do?

A: Do not meditate. Never force anything on yourself. You will start hating it sooner or later.

To start with, be aware of your breathing. Breathe consciously. Eat consciously. Drink consciously. Do everything consciously. It will give you the same or even better effect than meditations.

Q: Guru

A: Guru is a tattwa – a principle. Guru is not a man or a woman. Guru Tattwa flows through time. Terrestrial communication needs tangibility, a body. So, Guru happens in human form too, so that people can identify and understand. Everybody is a Guru to somebody. The eternal principle of Guru flows through everybody. Everybody has atleast one Guru. Every Guru had a Guru, the one who helped to destroy the darkness and ignorance of the limited conscious mind. Soul itself is a Guru. The true Guru, personal Guru of every being is its Soul. Guru could be an object, a message or a thought. Since Guru is a principle it could also be a telepathic communication or a communion. Guru appears when the disciple is eligible. Guru happens when the disciple is ready for that knowledge. When questions arise in mind, sooner or later, the answers appear. When questions block our natural evolution, information or advice happens through some one. Guru principle is beyond body. The supreme Guru is Parabrahma, the eternal father or Allah. Starting from Him, there are many many mouths that convey the eternal principles of existence or the laws of the universe. The Guru principle will eternally flow. Inorder to accept and accent the Guru principle, all we need are ego-less-ness and surrender. No judgement – Just an open mind. Thats enough. Guru tattwa will flow through us, washing away all our mental confusions and will always guide us. The moment we feel we know a lot or even worse, we know everything, the principle that is Guru can deliver nothing to us. So, the childlike wonder in us will work wonders for us, as the eternal Guru principle will take us to the highest possible, in one life time. Guru principle is based on unconditional love. It is based on zero expectations and complete benevolence. Pranaams to The Great Guru principle that eternally flows like Ganga.

Q: I have been observing …………. I do not think she is progressing. After spending so much time for God, why is she not progressing spiritually?

A: First of all, do not judge another person’s spiritual progress. You do not have the authority to do that. Nobody has authority to judge another person because they cannot see his/her karma which makes them progress or get blocked. Secondly, what do you mean by spending time with God? Is God an external entity? What is your concept about God? Does God experience loneliness – he asks someone to give him/her company? Understand that God is omnipresent. God is beyond all forms and is all forms. There is no separate God away from us. All are God. All are aspects of God. I believe what you meant by the expression “spending so much time with God” was ritualistic worship or chanting . It is true that rituals hardly produce evolution. It easily becomes another habit, without which we feel incomplete. So, in that context, I am not surprised that she is not evolving. But, I still would like to appeal to you to avoid judging another person as well as yourself. You do not know your karmic agenda as well. Remember that. Also, no comparison is possible in spirituality. Everyone is walking his/her own path to the same destination. Lastly, God does not need your time. God needs nothing. We need God. God has no insecurities in your absence or indifference. We have that issue. Let us not compare God’s consciousness with our waking state. So, everything is for ourselves. Nothing is for God. Understand this clearly. God Bless You.

Q: I see her touching the feet of every possible Guru. Will it take her anywhere?

A: I have no interest in commenting on such matters. Isn’t it individual’s discretion? Who are we to decide what is right or what is wrong? It depends on various factors. Still, I am answering this question in a different way, only because I thought it is very important to clarify certain matters in general terms. Getting the grace of all Masters is good, especially of those who are enlightened. Wandering unconsciously, not knowing what we are seeking is an absolute waste of time. This is the difference. Masters exist in a different level of consciousness than the seekers. Most people go to them seeking something tangible. This is the tragedy. Hardly a few people actually go to a Master seeking salvation – mukthi or moksha. I have seen many wanderers. They are so insecure, they cannot anchor anywhere. They are so feeble that they shift their loyalty at the fall of a hat. They have heavy expectations and, if they do not get exactly what they expect, they not only leave the Guru, but also scandalize him. Stability and consistency is essential for spiritual growth. One who keeps wandering camp to camp will never gather grace. But, having no divisions within and accepting all as Divine incarnations and being one with all the Masters is a great thing. There is no comparison there. There is only love. Unconditional love.  Love without expectations. Such people evolve a lot in one life.

It Is In Our Nature To Love Unconditionaly, Beyond All Barriers

Q: I cannot concentrate.

A: Do not concentrate. Be aware of this aspect of yourself and accept yourself with this aspect wholeheartedly. Never resist. Just be aware of your own breath pattern and then heart beat. You will surprise yourself.

Q: I am confused

A: Good. You are perfectly living the duality of existence. When you know that you are confused, when you are aware of your confused state, your diagnosis is complete. The remedy lies in the state itself. Clarity. In order to understand what is clarity, there should be confusion. Sound is essential to know silence. Silence is essential to know sound. One compliments the other. So, be relaxed. When the clouds of your mind leaves, sun will shine bright.

Q: Life and Death

A: Life and Death are not contradictory, but, they are complimentary. Life takes one to death and death takes one to life. It keeps happening. Time and space changes, destiny and destination changes. But, they are essentially complementary. We need to have life to know death and death to know life. One cannot exist without the other. Both are two sides of the same coin called terrestrial existence.

Q: Hunger

A: This body has consumed kilos of food and liters of water. Still it craves for more. How can we appease this craving? By going beyond the mind. By connecting to our eternal soul that has no needs or cravings. When we shed our dependency on food and water, we proceed in our path of liberation. Hunger is more of an emotion than a necessity in today;s world. We have wasted large quantities of food, with great indifference. Fine food adds to ego. Presentation of food – ego. Dinners – ego. We live a complex life. Where is the escape? Simplicity and Purity. Hunger will never control you. You will control hunger.

Q: What is bad?

A: Bad is an aspect of terrestrial duality. The other side of the coin of which one side is called “good”.

Q: How do we know that we are awake?

A: In spiritual terms? Simple. When we become aware that we do not exist. When no gross exists and we cannot experience duality anymore. Then we will know that we are awake.

Q: If a person constantly lives with dreams of the future, what happens to his present?

A: There is no present for him. He only lives in the future. Since he is not handling his present, his future will become chaotic. Those who always dwell in the future are usually escapists. They are lazy and tamasic. They kill their future by ignoring their present.

Q: What do you think about competition?

A: I only look at it as an aspect of duality – maya. If we compete in life, we are fools. Doing our very best is all what we can do and should do. If we compete with another karmic being, we are absolutely silly.

Maya…

Q: What about sex?

A: A good question. Without that you would not have been here to ask this question. What I do not understand is – why people give over emphasis to sex? According to me, its importance is similar to eating or sleeping. It is just another necessity to keep the species alive. I feel that our near impotent society made sex into a taboo or a big deal. We are blindly following that notion. Why can’t we just let sex be, just like our breath, heartbeat, hunger or any kind of strong emotion? What a shame if we give it over emphasis and brood over it!!!

Q: Can you give me a simple advice?

A: LOVE ALL … SERVE ALL I am borrowing these words from the Great Master Bhagawan Sai Baba. Also remember this every moment – WE REAP ONLY WHAT WE SOW…IN MANY FOLDS.

Good Deeds Are Always Rewarded With ABUNDANCE of Blessings

Q: Do you think I am selfish?

A: Yes. All are selfish. All embodied beings are selfish. There are very few enlightened ones. Look at yourself, observe yourself and your thoughts. You will know what I mean.

Q: Why can’t they understand me?

A: There is huge variety in levels of consciousness. Each one is in his own sphere, in that context.Those who bother us are those who cannot reach or understand our level of consciousness. Forgive them and love them. Soon enough, they will see what we see. It can also be the other way – we may not have the capacity to see their realm of existence. Then, we tend to disagree with them. We fail to understand them. Nobody is perfect. We are all walking the same wide earth seeking varied experiences. We all are trying to understand this existence, using our faculties, through the senses and mind. We are all enveloped in different levels of consciousness.

Q: When did you became aware that you are capable of imparting power or divine energy?

A: Never. I never existed in the first place. I still do not exist.

Q: How do you manage so many things everyday?

A: I do not manage anything. Everything happens through me. Why do we develop this ego aspect that we are managing matters? Are we managing our respiration? Circulation? Digestion? Conversion of food to energy and waste? Heartbeat? Secretions? When we are not controlling all these vital functions that are essential to keep our body in working condition, what are we controlling outside? The feeling that we control things is utter delusion. Just be far away from it. Be clear about that.

God Bless All.

Love

M